Angry that I ever got hurt and can’t participate.
Chordy, you’re still breathing! Don’t rule it out until you’ve taken your last breath.
I’m in the habit of being unlovable.
I struggle with feeling unlovable too. But there are all kinds of love. If one doesn’t work for you, you can try another…
Habit’s are for changing.
Start small and work your way up.
In AA they tell the newcomers to the program who come into the group, beaten down and broken, often full of anger and self-hatred, ready to give up. They tell the newcomers, “We will love you until you learn to love yourself”. In other words, Chordy, you got this whole forum.
Sometimes my love receptors are closed but I’ll try to open them up at least for the forum.
I was hurt so badly…not once…but twice. And then hurt another ten times. Doubt I could ever love again…
When sz ruins your life from ages 15-25 (the years u learn to love or not to love) and people treat u like ■■■■ when u know you’re worth it…it’s hard to ever think about loving anyone again. And u become thorny and cold. This is part of the reason why I make music.
The second girl who hurt me thought i would prefer to take the long road and chase her rather than just be in love right then. Turns out she had another bf at the time. So she had options. “CHASE ME FOR THE NEXT 15 years then I will love you, but until then I’m just gonna stay with my boyfriend!!! Ya right!!!” Not only were you the second love but I’d never do that. Man she wasn’t very intelligent though tbh.
I’ve been hurt too many times to mention. Lost count of the number of times. I’ve hurt others a few times myself as well. Just a whole lot of hurt all around. I witnessed my son get hurt pretty bad by his high school sweetheart. He never did recover. And that hurt me. So you can say that I am pretty down on love. I want nothing at all to do with it at this point. Right now, the love of my life is the Big Man upstairs.