one appealing thing about Satanism is that they do not believe in supernatural beings. there is no god. no devil. no heaven or hell. just reality in the moment. I will still be careful that i dont get all wrapped up in it. I’m going to learn a little at a time
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Yes,
They are all about living in the moment and enjoying life for yourself.
Still, just don’t find a new thing to obsess about.
This a great topic!
I used to be EXTREMELY religious for a short period of time, but I didn’t know I was schizoaffective yet. I think I might’ve been delusional, taking things so seriously that it harmed my marriage and my relationship with other family. I was completely obsessed about my newfound religious beliefs. Now that I know I have schizoaffective, I’m kind of agnostic.
I’m scared to be religious now, because how will I know when I’m feeling God’s presence for real vs. being delusional? How would I know if my internal compass is influenced by God in a healthy way vs. being influenced by high & mighty delusions? It’s such a fine line and I’m scared of it now.
I can see how this disease could disrupt your meditations. I wouldn’t worry about it. Your pensive side will probably recover in time.
Interesting, I have been very religious too in the prodrome / very start of the disease.
Do you have trouble differentiating what are TRUE feelings and what are delusions? I feel like the concept of faith can be so easily skewed when you’re SZ/SZA.
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Shouldn’t delusions be about beliefs rather than feelings? 
Sorry, I’m bad at explaining things correctly. What I meant was strong feelings about extreme beliefs. Beliefs lead to feelings and feelings lead to actions/changes in behavior.
Like I would constantly feel like God was giving me a million convictions… Nothing had real basis, though.
Yes, looking behind these strong feelings may have been simply a manifestation of the illness, "extreme religiousness or preoccupation with the occult " is considered one of the prodromic signs.
I think also that the disease ‘messes with our 6th sense’, you get weird feelings. (paranoia, etc).
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id go with like a logical transition back into society/work/social allowing real time ideas in and letting that create its own framework
Rather then satanism,
That Ideology still keeps the idea open of like a space of a cause of things/life, might just throw you deeper into thinking if you run on that track.
I hated “god” and all religious ideas,
Basically I ■■■■■■■ hated “just the whole scope of it”
That went on for a long time,
Then one day I woke up and said,
I’m the only one to blame,
It was extremely hard but I had to let the hate seep out of me, and in closing I let go knowing it was all a divergent thought process,
Then just continued on with my madness,
Knew that changing the thoughts wouldn’t actually change my schiz, my madness still went on and so did the thinking, it got both 10000 times better, so much better, from where I was.
All ideology basically just died, and it doesn’t have any sound, To me. There isn’t a worry
Guess in reality my emotions Just got more in a flexible place.
All my opinion though.
Before I was diagnosed I was an athiest who believed in demons etc. After diagnosis nothing has changed other than I don’t obsess about those beliefs now.
Atheist , the only thing that sz understands is action to make your life, it does not care a fack how much you pray…
I became more religious after I went into remission. After my relapse my spiritual life suffered. Now I only do basics in Islam. I find I’m very distracted when praying. It’s hard to concentrate. Sometimes Alien bothers me in my prayers.
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