So I posted a little while ago about going off my meds. Well, like a true idiot, I ignored the sage wisdom of everyone in my life and everyone on here. I felt good, so I stopped my meds. I’m sza and went into a very short manic episode and then crashed into depression and psychosis. I didn’t really tell many people this but I ended in the hospital after I attempted suicide.
Now I’m trying to recuperate. I was on track to be a mental health counselor and it looks like that dream died because of my illness. And I don’t know what I want to do. I got 3 years into school and now I’m either being dismissed or told to take a long time off. I kept it a secret that I was in school for mental health because it seems ironic to so many people and on this forum I just was me, not “counselor” me, just me. So here’s to being real and honest.
2019 in general sucked. I lost both of my remaining grandparents a week apart, I got into a car accident that totaled both cars and got sued over it, I had 3 hospitalizations, 1 suicide attempt, lost my chance at school, lost my job… and here I am, a hot mess for 2020.
This dream is not dead Just paused. you can still do this dream.
I always listen and so do alot of people around here. So you are always welcome to say things.
Just to honestly let you know it can and will get better for you but you have to have a few things.
These are a list of em :
1.) More patience with yourself
2.) focus on your goals and dreams.
3.) a quite place to attempt to or to meditate problems.
4.) a good case working in mental health to help you out.
5.) a excellent P’Doc and Nurse’s
6.) Lots of good friends or people to hang out with that can help you in your daily battles.
This is just a tiny list that has always helped me .I hope it helps you as well.
