There is a saying that, the world is not going to give you anything. I just read an article from my 20 year old niece about the 20’s being formative years. It stated that the things learned, discovered and done during these year indicate what you will be doing through out your life.
Man, this is a bum rap for the sz in all of us. Schizophrenia hits right in the early 20’s and I am afraid that many of us fall through the cracks. All the talent and potential of the teen years is made solid during the 20’s and continued through life.
I can see that. I am 44 years old and it seems like yesterday that I was just starting the hear things (hallucinations) and have some crazy ideas about the world (delusions). It took 7 to 8 years of it to finally come to a head but by 30 everything was settled down mentally. but during my 20’s I was arrested a couple times, left homeless and friendless. Through it all I knew that I had to read and study as much as I could.
Those foundation like things helped me to have confidence when things got brighter. When I was on dates with my beautiful artist wife before we were married I could talk about all sort of cultured things; art and artists, being one of them. When I am in social situations formal and informal I know what to talk about. These experiences no matter out of the ordinary, form us.
In your 20’s you have to turn off the TV, read, write, learn to play a musical instrument, learn how to fix a computer, anything that involves making your self better will pay off big in your 30’s and the remainder of your life.
I could have told my wife about me and my problems that the illness causes. I could have told her about the arrest record. I could have been truthful with a lot of things. But instead I did not lie, I just talked about different things.
You have to keep fighting and things will get easier.