Part of me finds it hard to let go of, at the time they could be so real, and had me so confused. Almost a twisted form of grieving process.
I’m much more controlled on the meds, and I can let minor delusions go without much trouble, but the major ones I had when in full psychosis, those still linger, albeit that I know they can’t of been real
Majority of my delusions are gone. I still worry about being monitored by cameras and recording devices but not as strongly. My fear that people are out to get me has reduced, as has my fear that other people are actually aliens. Meds has helped but I still have bad moments now and then.
There are times I’m completely free of delusions, there are times they come back when triggered. I too have had (or have?) a real difficult time to let go of the major ones and especially the underlying thought that I am a bad person and will be punished for that. At the moment I’m mostly fine though.
My delusions have been gone since November of last year. I went in with them and they never came back. The disease is still hard but I don’t experience delusions… not so far since then, at least.
Captain Beefheart plays some werid ■■■■, but it’s strangely soothing. He reminds me of Frank Zappa in a sense. Probably the mustache and weird clothing
I see myself as a visionist and some of our visions came true. Do some visions of yours came true?
In technology religion medication and so forth for example. I don’t mean to take credit as I just thought about it but haven’t done anything to take it into reality.
Or is it a delusions?