It pays to be honest. Maybe I’m too honest. I went from a 5+ year review to a 3+ year review for talking about my delusions but I wasn’t really smart or professional about the matter. I just was voicing my problems which I thought were real. I didn’t really specify what I “couldn’t do” and I felt like my day to day tasks were too stupid to mention like crapping, smoking, drinking, etc.
I’m getting better but rather just stay home and not work. I feel ‘targeted’ or a victim sometimes and the doctor felt like it was his job to get me off benefits. My mom said I was doing better honestly, but not sure how I can work if I don’t shower, brush teeth, change clothes, and live in my head months at a time. Not so sure.
Life for me is getting better now under less strict rules for poor people like myself. I don’t feel like if I can ‘like a stamp’ (like one member here put it), I can work. Perhaps, I’m entitled or it’s my mentality. I’ll survive either way.
Still think I was ‘taken’ or abducted by aliens in college. Not really sure. Could be one or the other, or both.
I get flashbacks and dreams of past lives sort of like the Mandela Effect except the world keeps spawning like a video game on repeat with slight variations and crap. The totality of the variations can be substantial. I think I was in some sort of SSP program (perhaps alien) and thus might be from another earth and am a doppelganger. I never had money, but in my dreams, I did join the Illuminati, but ended up like Donald Marshall for talking too much. It seems like my past keeps following me and haunting me from one aeon to the next sort of like reincarnation and bad karma. It felt like CCC (Conformal Cyclic Cosmology) and sim theory.
They told me I was in “monarch” in a past life – they really did. They admitted it. But I think aliens are real too and real aliens interacted with me. Not sure why I was targeted unless they had it in for me or I was born into it.
I’m sort of disappointed in myself and my government. I think I should be getting more money or perhaps live in a better reality/world/simulation altogether. I thought about Canada or Norway but cannot go there by myself. I doubt they could protect me better anyways.