That’s going to happen as long as they determine that you are a threat to yourself or someone else. As soon as you can step back a little bit, and say that your not feeling that way now, you were but not now, and now you want to build a safety plan for yourself… The better your outcome will be. Isn’t that what you are looking for? Someone to be there to care and to be the back up safety plan when things go awry. Start thinking of who those people you could turn to might be.
The problem is, is that when I tell those that are on my safety plan, they get really worried and tell me I need to go to the hospital. My meds were raised, yet I don’t feel any difference. I don’t want to tell my safety plan people too much as I don’t want to be forced into the hospital again. Why do I keep thinking this way? Why don’t the meds help? I wish I knew.
It’s time to start living your safety plan. Start reaching out to people and getting more involved with life. At this point, all you can think about is suicide…you need a distraction, find it somewhere that it is constant. For me, I started going to daily Mass. You get to know the people that go and you form a bond. Other people I know have gone to the schools and have volunteered as reading and math coaches. They always need help at schools, even if it’s at lunch time to give teachers a break. You can volunteer to read at a nursing home. You have no idea how much you would be appreciated if you did. People there are lost and often forgotten. These are just some ideas, you might like crafts, want to et a job, the point is the choices are endless but you are at the point that you must do something for yourself to pull yourself out of this funk. There is no magic pill, just hard work.
gwt yourself checked into a psychiatric hiospital. You need help. Get on some meds, different meds that will help you. There are some good new meds on the market leike clopixol and clozapine.
I’m still recovering from a friends suicide been like 4 years now. Anniversaries are the worst her birthday and the day she did it still are very hard for me to get through. The first two years I was hospitalized on the anniversaries of the day she did it. Although you may not know it you have made an impact on all who know you. Even here on the forum. Your death by your own hand will add to that pain. You will be missed.
One thing you have to look at is the afterlife. What if it’s worse then your current life. Does ending your life add to that?
The ER is open 24/7 if you need to talk to somebody. I’d feel better if you talk to a pdoc or someone at the ER asap. Phone counselling lines are open 24/7 and are cheap. So you can just talk about what’s going on with you. They are also trained a bit more to help you the we can.
If you do need some here on to talk to PM me any time on this. Although I’m about to head to bed in the next few hours.
Suicidal thoughts come in waves. They are just thoughts you do not have to act on them! They pass with time. Meds help and I hope you will see regarding either a med tweak or using them to help relieve your symptoms.
If nothing else talk to someone who will listen to you. .Churches often offer free counselling if you need it. But also an open ear for you talk to if your not sure about talking or seeing a psychiatrist.
Most importantly your not alone with what your going through nor do you need to face it alone.
Here if you need us.
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I’m trying to sleep better and eat better to see if that helps my thought process as well. Also, I’m not drinking pop either. I keep looking on this site to help me out and have found some good information. I know I need to go talk to someone, but right now the paranoia of being put back in the hospital is preventing me from doing that. Two weeks ago my Invega and Zoloft were increased and one other one. I guess I may just have to wait to see if they help me out.
Start with the basics. Just getting out of the house for a long walk once a day helps. As it helps clear the mind and helps us with clarity on our thinking. Exercise burns of the excess crap in our bodies and helps stave off depression.
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My son has just been through a suicidal phase. He found that getting out and going to a natural green space made him feel better. Reminding himself that it WILL pass helps. Now he’s exercising hard (weights) and keeping in touch with other people more. He wasn’t sectioned, but I did tell his nurse, and she told him to go to E & R if it got too bad and go in voluntarily. I think once he realized how much we all want him to stick around, it helped.
I think you are doing the right thing with trying to look after yourself. Interestingly, you care whether you go to hospital or not. To me that indicates that deep down you see hospital as a kind of forced time- out. That means that deep down you feel you would be better outside with some living to do!
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My brother told me about this account of a guy who tried to commit suicide by jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge. He survived. The guy said the second he cleared the railing he realized he could solve all the problems in his life, except the one he had just created for himself by jumping off the bridge.
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dont do this please i lost my step dad to suicide …he killed himself by jumping from a bridge that i have to go over every day losing someone you love is heat breaking please dont do this to your family your friends
please live … i dont know what has made you feel this bad that you will end your life
whatever pain your in am so sorry but please dont do this
you are in my thoughts please call a crisis line or go to A and E ( ER ) and ask to talk to the mental health team
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Zak, you know you have to be brave ! i have these thoughts also, think of your loved ones, they need you to be everyday near them, i have the ugliest thoughts you can imagine : whenever i go on an upper floor and there’s a way to jump from there , i get the thoughts in my head to instantly do it, or when i cross the road i get the thoughts to jump in front of a car, please don’t listen to these thoughts!
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I just got out of the hospital and I still have suicidal thoughts. My voices keep telling me to do it but I’m tuning them out
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Stay strong. You’ll pull out of this. Keep in touch with your doctors.
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