And I have to say I am really pleased with myself! I had a paranoid thought and was going to make dramatic changes when I said to myself ‘ wow Jim. That thought is way out there!’
In all honestly this is the first time I have spontaneously done that
I kinda am learning to not accept living in fear 100% of the time.
Up to now I have kinda harboured slightly obsessive thoughts that if I let go of my fear the universe would punish me. Like I deserved to always be paranoid and afraid.
This last week I have been more pragmatic and less hard on myself. I have realised being hard on myself is not going to stop bad things happening - so why be hard on myself