What to do with the day? I’m glad I have this forum. It’s the only place on the net I visit frequently. a place for schizos.
There is a lot of talk about religion on here today, I decided to stop making posts like that. No one’s mind is going to change from a short comment or anything like that. It is kind of pointless. Maybe you’ll find some like minded people and you can all pat yourselves on the back for holding X belief or disbelief. Also pretty pointless.
My recovery is still coming along pretty well. Schizophrenia has really made me question the kind of person I want to be and how I want to operate. More importantly how I want to think. My inborn design crashed and burned, now i have to put myself back together. The hardest part is not thinking about things you don’t want to think about. I’ll recognize it, like I’m not thinking about X then I’ll start thinking about X. My primary tactic is to make my thoughts as brief and weightless ass possible.
My voices aren’t to terrible any more, I have come to know their operations. They mechanical in nature and they do get quiet when I focus on things. The real battle is keeping myself busy.
Got my xbox and computer back from my brother’s house yesterday, so there might be a few hours of fun in there, but i don’t have room to set them up. Got a nice shiny, practically useless ps4 in the way. Destiny is crap.
Life goes on, still contemplate suicide at night. Part of me just doesn’t want to face the world or challenge myself. The thoughts offer me a temporary escape. I’m not really serious about it though. It has become to easy to live. It is hard to imagine what my life will be like in a year.
Got a friend with the master cheif collection. I miss playing halo, its one of the few things I was truly good at. If they had a bundle of the collection with the console I would probably pick it up. Stupid indulgence, but it would be cool to own. I think I’ve said enough t this point.
thats great you are fighting your thoughts, meds are a godsend too, help so much and i hope you enjoy your computer games, they can be fun 
You are exactly right. Thanks for posting this.
thanks for checking in. It sounds like your doing great. Your controlling Sz and not letting it control you. It’s a hard flip to make… but it sounds like your making it.
You sort of sound like me a little over a year ago. I was just getting back to myself last year… just starting to realize that I had more power over my life then I ever gave myself credit for.
I hope this year will be a great one for you. One thing that used to get me was glitch days… because there are days the head circus likes to paly no matter how much I try to do it right.
Not letting those days get me down and brood and ruminate and let a glitch day turn into a glitch week is what I’ve been learning how to do.
Hoping the best for you…
Yeah glitches are the worst. People are so crazy intuitive though it’s almost like they are reading my mind. I want some privacy damn it lol. For the most part though normies don’t dwell on things or really even give a ■■■■. I’m learning a lot from them.
Glad things are improving mate. Rome wasn’t built in a day keep on fighting the good fight.