I don’t know what it is. Sometimes I just feel like my life has completely crumbled and I, and my wife, will never be happy again. Not the way we were. Then I come on here and there are people with the same problems and it helps to talk about it. Sometimes people are actually doing well and it gives me hope on the bad days.
This disease… it just threatens to take everything. I appreciate this place, that’s all I wanted to say. We have to take it one day at a time and cling to the things that give us hope.
Yes, I’m at work right now in the states. I have a low stress job as a night security guard. As for hobbies, I used to read a lot and even lecture on spirituality. The last time I lectured was exactly 2 years ago in October. It feels sometimes like Ive lost my faith since the voices started 1 1/2 years ago. I still have a lot of spiritual books in my library.
Wow you have a lot going on really! I think it’s great. You’re probably doing much better than you think. Especially if you’re working. I’m sorry you’re focused so heavily on your schizophrenia. Maybe try re-organising all the spiritual books in your library for something to take your mind off the illness.
It’s nice connecting with other people.