Not much of a change in voices compared to yesterday…, few pop ups triggered by changes in sounds (Neighbours having a wedding reception party - every time they stop playing music, my voices pop up, but they disappear after few seconds). But I can stay in a silent room without hearing constant voices.
Also, my thinking’s more organised compared to yesterday… less erratic/disorganised, but still deluded… - On account of me trying to connect dreams to reality.
Anyways, still hungry… felt like walking to the wedding reception nextdoor, and sitting down as one of the guests…ofc, with a bowl of chicken legs and soup, compliments of the wedding. Still smell the aroma from my room.
Yea, also had a hard time falling a sleep…, body just wouldn’t allow it.
I’m glad you’re giving up on the fast. Please drink plenty of fluids and please eat something, starting slowly so you don’t throw up.
There is no objective scientific evidence that fasting cures schizophrenia or alleviates symptoms. There’s plenty of evidence that fasting for extended periods of time is harmful and can cause irreversible physical damage and can even be fatal.
Sorry Moonbeam and all the guys opposing this… But I have to go on. I’ve only had 2 meals since my last post - first time was a small potion meal (wasn’t drinking red wine, so I couldn’t finish the whole plate. - red wine maintains the stomach lining preventing any complications while fasting. Also makes it easier to eat after you finish the fast), finished 2nd meal - most of it.
Anyways… Decided to go on coz this is probably the only chance I’ll get to do this ; next year can’t keep using schizophrenia as excuse to ignore all my responsibilities - studies included. So am going to try pull to the end.
So far, compared to before I started this, I feel normal, voices feel foreign to some extent - it’s awkward when I hear them ( voices frequency reduced, but I still hear them, and they are quieter than usual.
In terms of physical, felt extremely weird when I ate, and my feet were numb like. … emotionally, looking back, I feel like I was insane, crazy to some extent - but can’take verify that coz might still be insane right now Anyways, doing this so I won’the be insane after I finish… wish my luck. PS… JOKING or thinking ABOUT FOOD WHILE FASTING IS NOT FUNNY.
Had 2 meals… First time, couldn’ finish the whole plate, even though every part of me wanted to.
2nd meal was after I woke up. Was able to finish it all.
Am hoping I won’t do that again, really inconvenient to my efforts to find a way out of this deluded world we call ‘schizophrenia’
Anyways, a little something about myself : I’ve been 3 years schizophrenic, spending a major part of the first 2 years believing the magical reality of schizophrenia, but never engaging in it - would just be watching or the guy who shouts back at the woman next door complaining about my voices.
Anyways, got rid of that mentality this year and I credit it mostly to my fasting streaks… First time I fasted, I credit it purely to anorexic tendencies caused by my schizophrenia; was rarely hungry feeling tired all the time( schizo symptom at the time) + my friend was tired of having to walk alone to the cafetiria to get my food (schizo voices made all walks outside my room a nuisance, so I’d always ask my roommate to get me food)… So one day I just decided to lock myself in my room with only water and the bible, after 4 days inside, I walked out and everyone who new me was shocked out of their minds (my appearance had changed beyond belief), went back in my room and spent another 3 days drinking water and studying the bible. After those 7 days, I’ve been tryin to fast every month. (Walking outside was no longer a nuisance - well, after people got used to the skinny me )
Anyways, it’s been 8 months since those first 7 days and this time I wanna go higher than I’ve gone before (highest I’ve gone is 14 days)… If my body allows it, am going to make it to 30 days, if am not schizo free after those 30 days, I’ll be content with my current condition… which, thanks to fasting, is better than most schizophrenic - on account of myself 1 year ago.
I understand you are curious about the effects of fasting on schizophrenia. I am too. But if you do 30 days of fasting, can you at least find someone - maybe your GP or some other doctor? - who monitors whether you are still doing all right physically and mentally? I don’t know you but I’m a little worried.
Could feel the remnants of what should have probably been a schizo episode… ; mind just got engulf by shruggish voices, and my thoughts reverted back to sync with my voices (what I think, would come out as part of the voices - my thoughts become the voices). It’s something that hasn’t happened to me in months. Have no explanation to why it occurred. It stopped few moments later after it begun.
Aside front that, nothing major… ,
PS - Marian, I’ll put everything you said into consideration once I get to day 20, as for now, experience going 14 days gives me nothing to be concerned about. Hopefully this wkn’the be in vain by day 20…
Anyways, doing this so I won’the be insane after I finish… wish my luck. PS… JOKING or thinking ABOUT FOOD WHILE FASTING IS NOT FUNNY.
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