no, nothing. I often feel my brain in the head. To have stopped complaining helped me a bit though :). But I have a lot of physical sensations. Its all per waves. I dont know any other schizophrenic who somatise to this point, I wonder why I am like this… I just want to be free physically… I never lost my mind like it can happen in this illness and I am afraid that meds are not acting like they do to others… Otherwise, I ve tried around 10 aps, none of them didn’t work. its only the Zyprexa who makes me eat at least and got me out of the bed. But I am unhappy, I cant even smile sometimes etc etc.
I dont know. maybe there are people who never recover and I am from them…
I don’t know what to say, Anna. I have treatment resistant SZA/OCD/PTSD since high school with a lot of somatic symptoms. I can relate well to the concept of waves. It’s a challenging adventure - a polite understatement. I hope we can both feel better though.
You are far from ugly @Anna1.
As a matter of fact I think that you look rather cute.
Just a guys perspective.
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oh, thank you wave. I am just afraid to get worse in the future cause I dont move at all in real life and I get old… I look unhealthy already etc etc. but whatever. I am more concerned about my mental health as I said…
Oh yes @Tomasina, you too have a lot somatic symptoms? I didn’t find somebody here who got it like this… But I guess the strange physical sensations are part of the illness, you say so?
I pray that my Zyprexa will work one day. sorry that you suffer too. you are not alone…
I have a lot ill friends in real life but they are all doing fine now 
They go to the hospital and after 2 months they are ok. For me the hospitals never served for a good. I was as bad as before them… no point to go there…but what if we never recover? do you have some life tomasina? me, I have no life at all, that is what misses me mostly… I have no pleasure at anything even though that I try…
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The system is suggesting that I send you a PM, Anna (replied to you 3 times in this thread.) So that is what I will do.
Appearances are not the whole story. A lot of the time if you’re friendly and accommodating it can undo the bad effect of your appearance. Also, a terrible personality can turn an attractive person into a pain to be around. If you just can’t relate to people maybe you could take up interests that are independent of the rest of humanity. Maybe you could read history and become a historian. Maybe you could become an artist. Maybe you could take up gardening. It is possible to acquire self esteem independently from other people. A lot of the time that need that you think you have isn’t as powerful as you might think. Personally, I get by with a minimum of human contact. I do need some interaction with others, but not as much as I thought. I’m fairly content in my solitary life.
I will go one step further than @crimby and say many people don’t care at all about appearance.
Don’t worry about appearance @Anna1, I remember that you wanted a boyfriend,
may all your dreams come true.
Don’t worry about appearance but if you are overweight try to reduce it for health benefits.
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I dont want a boyfriend really. If I wanted him I would be out looking for him… I just feel pain in my soul, I want this to stop. and to feel emotions too. I couldn’t handle a boyfriend, I am very paranoid from everybody… but the sex misses me, that’s for sure. to feel love too…
its you who told me that I look bad erez? oh yeah…
I wish my med works better, that’s all. this dumb med… I am ragy again…its unfair that all my ill friends they live their lives. honestly, they are not stronger than me. its just that meds are helping them… maybe I am borderline. idk…I never had hallucinations or big delusions…