Its horrifying how I look already. even some guys here told it that I dont look fine. its not only the meds. The fact that I live between 4 walls since 15 years marked me too much too…
I should forget about my dreams of good looking men. I watch the people on the tv and the good looking men date good looking women. even my mom says it…I dont want to start suffer on this too but lately everybody says that I dont look fine. yeah, they dont deal with the demons in their head…
I was very pretty kid but now, its a different story. I see even my mom who looks sometimes with regrets at my belly. my belly is bigger than my boobs. what an illness…
and no, I cant do efforts on this. My psychic is in too bad shape to do something…
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I love you, @Anna1. 
You’ll always be beautiful to me.
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I’ve come to the conclusion that I rather be overweight and stable than skinny and psychotic. I am happy being fat. I’ve accepted it.
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Oh, thank you tomasina!!! Its just that my body turned unnatural with this illness. its ok to be fat but I am disformed…
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I feel your pain @Anna1.
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You are a pretty gal @Anna1
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You are not disformed, you are beautiful.
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Just so you know, all families pick on their kids. My family tells me I need to lose weight and watch what I eat, even though I have an eating disorder they still trigger me. So don’t let your family pull you down with their comments; they think they’re helping when they’re not.
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oh, wave, I have problems believing it… I lost my features… I have cheeks now instead of features… But I started my home bycicle people…
Ill try to believe you. Its very painful when you see yourself as a freak. I am a bit dysmorphophobic in fact. But it doesn’t change the fact that the very good looking people prefer good looking partners no? or I am wrong?
insidemind, the meds dont work well on me so I am in double pain…and if this sadness continues, ill start to look very bad …
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Ok, I see stellaglow. My mom sucks 
I sometimes think she cant imagine what I went through. cause in the end, I spent all my youth suffering as hell and between 4 walls…
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Congratulations on starting the home bicycle, @Anna1.
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If you have body dysmorphia did you consider therapy? It can help. It’s no fun living with it. I used to hate myself no matter what I looked like, and no matter what people told me. I hope you can see yourself in a better light; you are beautiful.
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Thanks dear 
Can we lose belly from a home bicycle?
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Yes, I think so!
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But you all, do I look like I have some kind of illness? today my friend who is sz also told me that she doesn’t want to be ‘‘fat like me’’… I wanted to punch her in the head tbh, I am fed up by her. she is not fine now and she speaks like this…
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Really you are beautiful @Anna1. But I do see that you look a little tired in this picture. How have you been sleeping?
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I look always tired. Its my illness who is like this. I sleep well though, yeap…
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Yes, I’m sorry @Anna1. It is a hard illness. 
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You have beautiful features. I wonder how you look with a smile? I heard if you practice smiling it lifts the mood. Have you tried that? You are not deformed in any way. You could get dates no problem when you feel up to it.
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I agree. 15151515151
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