I was diagnosed Schizoaffective years ago after a stay in hospital. After I came out I didn’t engage with Mental Health services at all and tried my best to ignore what had happened. If anyone asked U just had depression.
Wherever I go people always seem to end up taking the mick out of me and saying I’m crazy. I internalised the shame and stigma around the diagnosis and at the sam e time was desperately looking for a cure so I could pass as “normal”. I ended up addicted to GHB (but not that worked well in the beginning).
Now, after doing Crystal meth (not the best idea) and having a series of psychotic breaks Im coming to terms with the diagnosis.
Schizophrenia for most of us has a habit of sneaking up and biting you on the Ass! Best thing you can do is take the meds and avoid the street drugs. Sounds like your on the path which is always good to see.
Now I’m not trying to pretend things aren’t happening Im planning to start a decent supplement regime using the information here. I also have a hospital appointment on the 14th which I’m dreading because it’s in an old Victorian asylum and the building looks horrible.
I’m also very tempted to experiment with Baclofen. I know that this is self medicating and it’s frowned on. Mental Health services wouldn’t need to know would they? They’d just see it as drug addiction.
The worst part about all this is realising that most of the people I thought of as friends were all laughing at me and bitching. That’s not paranoia, unfortunately. It’s the truth
I don’t agree with my diagnosis of paranoid schizophrenia. I used to believe I worked for the government but not since my meds. But there really are men following me, tapping my phone and computer, and there are cameras in my home. They are following me because they thought I worked for the government because I thought I did. It’s all very frustrating.
Before self-medicating, it’s pretty important to have an antipsychotic prescription to keep symptoms low. Self-medication should not be the first line of defence, since the results are not as reliable as an antipsychotic’s.
