I've been running from this diagnosis for 15 years


#21

Thanks everyone. I saw the Psyche Doc and he’s put in on respiridone as we 'll as a short course of lorazepam and zopiclone until I get my next appointment on Wesnesday. I’ll hold off the supplements and self-medicating for now.


#22

I have been there. That’s classic paranoid schizophrenia. And I did work for the government.

It gets better. You need to accept it.


#23

Good for you.

Welcome to the forums.


#24

But I’ve interacted with them back when I used to work. I don’t talk to them now but I know they’re still following me.


#25

I think they keep tabs on me too but it’s okay now. You get used to it. The monitoring. I think they monitor me here too but I don’t care.

When I was working it bothered me more because I always thought my boss was in on the conspiracy and was making my symptoms worse. Now they mess with me more subtly but I think they still interfere with my life and manipulate things but it gets better with time.

I have been playing this game for more than ten years now. How long has it been for you?


#26

10 years. I’ve been in therapy for the last 4 years. I’m still really stressed about it. I don’t want to go places because they might take me in for questioning which could lead to torture. I know they’re good at that.


#27

In the last ten years have you ever been taken in for torture? It’s probably not going to happen.

I used to stress and imagine about all the horrible things they would do to me when they got me. But it’s been more than 10 years and no ones ever got me.

I hope you feel better in time.

I cleared up a lot at the 6 to 7 year mark and accepted the illness but didn’t get really stable until 8 years in.

Maybe you just need more time.


#28

Welcome @Ginkyo! :slight_smile:


#29

:wave:151515151


#30

you be all nice and sh=it

it’s all good. I hope you’ll respond to me sometime.


#31

Welcome @Ginkyo I also have had schizoaffective for 15 years. Diagnosed for the first time in 2003.


#32

I’m having the new Risperidone 2mg I’m on. Like a wandering zombie with no way out. Do people think of using supplements,vitamina, baclofen stuff listed on this site as an alternative? I simply cannot imagine getting up and going to work like this. It’s like I’m not r really here


#33

Those stuff is not alternative but an adjunct.

Maybe you need more time for side effects to resolve. Or you need another ap.


#34

Thanks. I had this romantic idea I could 'cure ’ myself of at least the worst of negative symptoms. What I’m on right now makes me feel like I’ve been hit over the head with a brick. But it’s only day 2


#35

This doesn’t help at all. I went 2 years in complete ignorance, and I had been left on 20mg of Olanzapine. My ignorance to it all led to 35 Kilos in weight gain, and being zombified for all that time. The only way I got past this was by becoming informed about things. Burying your head in the sand won’t change anything, but getting good treatment does.


#36

Thanks. I went to different G
Ps a few times but we deliberately evasive and ra n the gauntlet of SSRI. It’s they didn’t really help. Now a while list of different mess in coming and a care plan too


#37

I’ve a new appointment in a week.


#38

The mental health services would need to know if you self-medicate on anything, otherwise they can’t properly help you.


#39

Welcome to the forum. It is nice to have new faces arrive. Everyone here is very supportive and accepting. I know what you mean about finding it difficult to accept. I have moments where i’m 100% okay with my diagnosis and embrace it. Then i have times where i just go into complete denial - someone else can have it but it’s not okay for me to have it. In the past it has led me to being non-compliant with my medication. However, lately i’ve been more accepting and i’ve taken my medication properly and it has helped. Keep talking to your mental health experts. They’ll make your life much better.