just sayin’.
anyone ever seen the movie Conspiracy Theory?
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A stopped clock is right twice a day too. Paranoia can be constant. So if you’re paranoid about everything you’re bound to get something right.
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how I love that expression, I almost forgot about it!
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Yeah, that’s all I used to say, and yeah, enough people found out that indeed I was right after all, and I got to wear the right crown.
Then after I felt that wonderful satisfaction call ‘Right’ on top my head for awhile, I started to realize at what cost to me this all took from me. The time it took for me to endlessly explain myself, the time to show others the same unwavering proof every time I saw them, the life it drained from me when my enthusiasm turned from indignation to anger at why others couldn’t catch on to what I was saying.
Oh sure, double whammy when one does things to you that you know are wrong, then after you try to tell other folks who weren’t there what the heck really happened, you find they don’t really believe that what you say could be true, and then comes the anger.
The revenge.
The time lost you never get back.
The feeling that even though you are clearly in the right, that crown gets pretty heavy and even more silly looking because others already know the truth, but wont give you much bragging rights over it, they just want you to ‘shut up’ and ‘get over it’ so you can quit prosecuting them for the lack of a part they played in it,
and after all, you start looking a bit like a prima dona, and it gets tiring to them while you neglect yourself and your other duties while on this kick.
So. yes, you know you’re right.
but do you want to be alone with your big head thinking others have to prove to you something they know, but you act like you’re the last to know?
or,
do you wanna wear that crown until it starts to weigh you and your big head down to the empty ground and by the time you stop patting yourself on the back, you realize just how much your hands now hurt too?
Being right is a short lived glory. wear the crown proudly for a little while,
Then move on to living your life again, because unless your born into the crown, it’s not for you to make a career out of it.
You have to reintegrate back into the world of the living someday, because if you don’t, you’ll have found your life has timed out, and all you have in your grasp is anger clenched fists instead of a few proud memories that make you smile.
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I seem to go about the old adage I was told as a child: “Living well is the best revenge”.
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Holy crap. I haven’t heard that before; it really hits hard.
I am a victim of sexual abuse and have struggled with PTSD from it for years. I think I’ll put this quote on my mirror! It’s very empowering!!
Thank you for sharing that. 
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I think I’ve been totally paranoid about facts. Hysteria is not a normal reaction to some stress or fear. Most people don’t get hysterical about threats even in the face of death . Normal people tend to stay calm. Not true with my sz.
I love that movie.
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My mom told me it. The story goes, a Jew parked his new Mercedes sports car, was asked why he drove, of all things, a German car, and he replied “Living well is the best revenge.”.
I have PTSD too. I am glad the quote helps! Also, prazosin and propranolol together pretty much cure PTSD. Do not take xanax for it- that makes it worse. I tried it. Also learned it from the research literature (I am a psych student).
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aww man party pooper 
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Have you ever been on a “ride a long” with the cops? Or listen to a police scanner for a week or month or two?
Most people over-react terribly when someone looks at them wrong.
I think our paranoia can take fear to a new level that appears to be hysteria . I may be wrong and maybe should not have said most ,however I have only experienced hysteria while psychotic. I’ve witnessed the majority of people staying calm in the face of danger. There are people that get hysterical over the smallest things. I have heard people comment on more than one occasion how people remarkably stay calm in life threatening situations. Thought I couldn’t find some data on line but didn’t find anything either way. I haven’t listened to police scanner but that’s only a sound bite of a person on an adrenaline high. Who knows? I could be wrong but that just reflects my life experiences. Maybe some war vets could chime in to what they have witnessed?
so true , im facing the same dilemma. is it worth being right ? ive already lost what ment the most to me , and theres not much left that makes my life satisfying , but if i remain “paranoid” of what has truly taken place willl i feel satisfied with acknowledgement without complete disclosure ? would a full disclosure bring back to me the time spent and what had been lost ? or am i better off miserable trying to just make due and being happy with what i have left of my life ? i mean i have so many times that are cold hard facts that this is mind control tech or something along those lines yet nobody is willing to admit to it…is it better to just give up n move on ? or fight a losing battle unable to make proper decisions or being able to freely interact with people and societ…so lost in my struggle