Is this what a psychotic episode feels like?

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I’ve been having lots of visual disturbances and/or visual hallucinations and sometimes also a noticeable increase in the ‘sound’ volume of my thoughts. 2 days ago things get more intense. When I’m not seeing things I’m feeling them distinctly, or 8n many cases ‘seeing’ things neither completely outside my mind outside.

Soon all these distinctions melt away. I can no longer differentiate between what I remember or what I imagine, inside and outside. 2 dimensional faces appear sort of projected just under the floorboards prancing about.

Perhaps more worryingly, the correspondence between language, thought, and real life objects renews its vows, and, as a consequnce, novel yet ephemeral associations are continously born and undone. Also, and this was for me was the scariest part, I experience something probably akin to thought blocking, but it might have been something else.

Does this sound like psychosis? As usual, no voices or paranoia so I was actually able to get on with my day almost as normal. Also, if this is psychosis, does it resemble what people with paranoid sz go through? Thanks.

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I experienced psychosis without voices aswell (but with a good amount of paranoia). One of the breaks was with little visual disturbances, very focused on auditive distortions and because of this, impairing and modifying my speech and my thought process aswell. I ended up not hospitalized, but with a good dose of olanzapine (temporarily) at home.

BTW, if I remember correctly you stopped using meds?

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Sounds psychotic to me, not a normal mental condition to have. I’m not sure its the typical paranoid experience definitely schizophrenic

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You seem aware that your mentally off, that insight is not typical in psychosis. I know

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That´s not true at all. When you have experienced it you know what´s coming.

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First episode i meant

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Or something your not used to

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Yes, I haven’t been on antipsychotics for years, but it’s like everything was happening at once.

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Thanks. I know I’m not paranoid so I kinda of wonder what psychosis without paranoia in the late onset is typically like.

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I always have a degree of insight, but the thinking about insight even in non psychotic disorders like OCD has changed. I just don’t know.

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So what degree of insight would you normally have when you have an episode?

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Could be related to OCD

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@Wave Yeah, I always have that suspicion at the back of my mind.

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No - this sounds like you are having some kind of psychosis but not paranoid delusions and hallucinations.

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Sounds like psychosis to me. I only see things when im paranoid. I often hear a white fuzz too. That i can live with. But when the faces disappear off pictures on my wall i start to freak out

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Yeah. There is this really old doctor who recently diagnosed me with disorganised sz. I mentioned something about it recently. I don’t really see how he could be right, I’m just not ‘disorganised’ enough, but the fact that I’m not paranoid or residual I guess posed a labelling challenge for him. I just don’t know.

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Faces disappear off paintings? Wow, that one is new to me

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I had a teacher (Dr. Bob Wingate) who should have thought I was unbalanced. Later he wrote a book of philosophy

In the book he wrote:

A mentally balanced person feels like part of an expanding universe. A mentally unbalanced person feels like the center of a collapsing universe.

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@NotSeksoEmpirico
I think the subtypes labeling are good understand to approach treatment. But psychosis is psychosis. Are you on meds giving you insight and keeping you from having delusions, which makes it harder to diagnose you with a subtype.

I think SZ can be a diagnosis on its own and is fine because you need the meds. There is Undifferentiated Schizophrenia if you need to label it.

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Hey sekso… It does sound like psychosis to me. You are hallucinating and seeing things that are not really there. i would mention these things to the pdoc before it gets worse

I have experienced thought blocking where i was not able to think about a person, I couldnt even think their name.

Not sure if this is similar to what you are experiencing

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