I live in an apartment. I share a roof/floor with two asholes upstairs. One directly above me, another kitty corner. I share a bedroom wall with the neighbor lady. In the living room, the asholes living room is right above and the neighbor ladies living room is right on the other side of mine. So I don’t know what it is but I feel like a pressure coming from every angle at once from all of them.
I notice it often and sometimes I will retaliate. But lately I am so tired and self involved that I sit on the couch to surf the web or eat in the living room and everything seems fine and then a half hour later something seems off and I come out of my self involvement and realize these people are all doing their “trip” and either mentally or physically they are focused on me. It sucks. The worst part is that I don’t know how long it’s been going on each time. It could be going on for ten minutes or a half hour but I am oblivious to it.
It’s crushing physically and mentally and it’s been going on for 7 months or more. I can physically and mentally literally almost feel them in my apartment. I am aware I am wrong often but they do some pretty lowdown sh*t. They act like they are only defending their own space and that they are "in the right’ but when I leave them alone and relax they inevitably intrude on me. I’m going through a rough time with this. It took me decades of craving peace of mind before I finally achieved it. Now I crave space and I am sure as hell not going to wait 20 years or even ten years or even a year for it. I want it now.