I’m trying to figure out if I need any more medications. I have the bipolar type of schizoaffective, so my psychiatrist has been wary about putting me on SSRI’s or anti-depressants. I tried Vyvanse and that helped with focus and attention but not with mood and flat affect. I’m also nervous that if I get on anti-depressants I’ll slowly become worse. I’ve been thinking of asking about Lexapro because it makes me lose weight and have a better sex drive. It also makes me more social and happier. The only thing is, I had a friend betray me who was on it and is acting psychotic and he just got put on Lexapro for depression. So I’m scared to take it now. And the past three days I’ve been adjusting to things. I haven’t been sleeping as well so I started taking 30 mgs of Abilify again since I was on 15mgs to see if it would work better but it just made me more irritable to be on less Abilify.
I just want normal moods!! I have always been distant and dealing with either mania or flat affect and for once I just want to know how it feels to empathize and feel well.
Maybe I should take Vitamins instead or St. John’s Wort alongside my medication. I think that’s what I’ll do.