I will start by saying that I was not dreaming to write in EN, because in this language I am still horrible.
… during my first episode psychosis I started hearing voices in my head “You will be a writer”. Somehow, I believe it is an actual my childhood dream, because I always loved reading!
And this thing catched me so much… that freaking every, everyday I was thinking on my writing success, on how many millions I will earn, how amazing I write.
Actually, I tried to send my writings to few proffesionalls, and they actually said"it’s not bad, but you need wider vocabulary, learn lots of things etc." So, I would say probably it’s not really bad, but still. I even dont know what should I write. I am not even sure if I want it, it’s hard to explain, but this delusion (or whatever it is) is soooo catchy, because it seemed like whole universe is sending me signs on how I should be a writer 
I din’t even passed my twelve class native language exam… 
Though, many people ask, “how so?” But still, that shows a lot. (that I haven’t passed it)
EVEN THOUGH I AM NOT SURE ANYMORE. Do I want to write? Or maybe don’t? or maybe it’s actual delusion from the beginning, that it’s my destiny?
How to know whether it’s my delusion, passion or actual destiny?
Though, not a believer in destiny 