Guys, sorry, I’m being super active today 
Anyway… is this a delusion, and does it indicate that my mind is a bit insane now?
It’s not the first time I’ve thought that maybe the doctor is prescribing antipsychotic medication in order to cause psychotic symptoms! As if specially made pills are being given just to induce psychosis in me personally… Now that I’m reading what I’ve written, it really doesn’t seem rational 
Logically thinking, my brother used to intensify such thoughts. He often said that “psychotropics only make things worse in the long run.”
Yes, it’s delusion. The pharmacies only carry legit medication. There’s no way something like this can happen in a open and free society.
Try to relax and trust your medical team 
I do think antpsychotic possibly can make a person mentally dysfunctional with all its side effects, but it definitly doesen’t induce psychosis.
Still, it’s strange that my doctor, while observing me, sees signs of some magical thinking and intense anxiety — but she no longer believes it’s a psychotic disorder; rather, she thinks it’s all more related to ADHD.
And before the whole psychosis, no one suspected anything — I was behaving and speaking normally. My entire illness is just strange.
@Mr_Hope
SZ isn’t always the stereotypical thing. Sometimes it is but not always.
I think that’s a pretty common scenario.
People who are functioning well gets struck with psychosis like lightning. A lot of people don’t see it comming. Before it happened to me I honestly believed it was impossible for me to get mentally ill.
I was so wrong. Now I believe anything can happen to anyone.
What’s strange is that when I’m not doing well, I’m the first to feel it… I analyze my thoughts very deeply — and then I realize that something about a certain thought isn’t quite right. But it’s either a very mild form of a psychotic disorder — or something else, I don’t know what, because even my doctor hasn’t settled on a single diagnosis. I always thought that stress was the trigger that made things worse for me — but now I realize that things can get worse even when I’m alone.
@Mr_Hope
It could be a delusion if you are doubting the doctor’s intention. If you are thinking, that perhaps, through some mechanism, medicines may worsen your symptoms, then I suppose it may or may not be a delusion. There is at least some rationale in that, and some medicines can make the symptoms worse I suppose. You are just considering the converse outcomes with medications, which is all right in my opinion.
Secondly, if you are doubting the doctor’s intention, then you have to ask yourself, is there any rationale behind that? Is there a reason which may have led you to believe if the pdoc is trying to undermine you on purpose?
I honestly think I am dependent on them. And the body goes through withdrawals when stopped which make my psychosis and feelings worse. But now that I am dependent on them and see them work I have taken on the attitude that they help me more then make me worse as long as I stay on them. I take meds now to free me from psychosis which allows me to focus on what I want to achieve with my life.
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