I’ve been slightly sensitive since I was about 9. I feel I was born with paranormal insight though. I have high verbal and reading abilities, though I don’t read a lot and information has seemed come to me sometimes in a psychic way.
Here are a few recent experiences I can think of atm:
a lighter in my bedroom flew off the table and landed on the floor. This has happened twice now I think. I have a Ghost Detector APP which has picked up names and phrases used by people who died (Jessica was his best friend who OD’d and her name comes up a lot as does Lauren, glamorous) He lost a lot of friends to suicide and drug overdoses etc, happens always at my friend’s house which is haunted. At my house I have snapped pictures of lights, orbs, and a figure that was sitting next to tim, in a duplicate position but opposite him. I don’t know if the APP’s pics are real so I’ve been hesitant to think it’s accurate or real.
There are quite a few experiences that are too difficult to talk about. One time I came back from a trip at the cabin, where the doors locked me in and my mom freaked out. It was just me, my brother, and my mom there. The door wouldn’t open. I was locked from inside. This happened once at my house when I was in the bathroom when I came back from that trip. The door locked, as if someone was holding the door!!! I freaked out. A bunch of stuff was in random places, like a “tooth decay” pamphlet in the cereal cabinet. A GWB plush doll in my dad’s office. I got blamed for most of it because I was considered Bipolar or Manic, perhaps due to some of my experiences as well.
This was also during a time I bought an item with a bad attachment, said to bring you closer to the otherside. Actualy the item’s tag said it would act as a bridge from this world to the other one. It was a cross with reverse spirals that I found at an antique store in the new age section. I got rid of it because it was giving me chest pains when I wore it touched it or looked at it. The nightmares still continued for years afterwards of a man cloaked in darkness who was attacking me in every which was causing severe mental trauma. I believed the trauma could have been psychological, but it didn’t explain the paranormal events.
I was also born on Friday the 13th in January. My birthday tarot card is death and my tarot card sign is the devil, lmao. I am not so unlucky though. I’ve surrounded myself with angels and I’ve begun practicing a bit of lightwork in the past. At this point, I’m at a crossroads trying to figure out what to do with my energy.
I have this undying urge for spiritual power and control over situations. I get excited when a spirit tells me something that averts danger. It is too awe inspiring. Everything is awe inspiring. I am currently labeled with either bipolar or schizoaffective. If most people have negative voices, I have helpful and positive ones. They say the interpretation of hallucinations has been proven to be based on culture. American culture has the worst prognosis in this study for hallucinations because they are not seen as gifts but as meaningless symptoms.
I studied carl jung and it helped gain insight on locating the source of a hallucination or even delusion. Thus, curing my symptoms while I still struggle with the choice of taking medication.
It’s not so much about raw energy but how you synthesize it in your experiences into something rational. For instance, I always sought to prove my experiences not fantasize with them. That’s why I differ from those who have fixed delusional beliefs. Mine have been proven, almost always. I practice minor things in spirituality such as tarot, angel tarot, and prayer -