Everlasting life, free from suffering seems like a nice thing to me.
Someone once said to me that we are just fertilizer this analogy makes me feel sad.
Things like courage, determination, resilience, and all the good things that we do to combat our illness does not go unnoticed, when it is my time at least I can say I tried my best despite all of my hardships, it’s all that’s really asked.
I thought about death a lot and have two attempts. I don’t know if thinking and action connected, it up to you if you want to entertain that thought. You should be free of fear to think about anything, I guess.
I wish I could believe in afterlife. I wish I was more of a spiritual person. I have studied the occult a bit, and satanism, but I can not find myself to be spiritual in any way. or interested in any religion. I feel I am missing out a lot. I wish I would have some kind of trust in life. But I don’t.
I’m sorry this is not what you asked. I just feel sad for being this way… I’m lonely.
Can I ask you what you trust the most? I mean maybe it’s family or friends or something. If that’s the case then love must be pretty important since that’s what connects us. Even if people aren’t always loving, we can trust that love is the best things in our life, and we can trust in that fact. Again even if it’s a rarity, we can trust that love, when it does come around, is the greatest thing we can experience.