One thing that a support group that I go to (general, not SZ focused) suggested that I just call them when I am having an episode of voices really telling me to kill myself. Because of the admission a week or so ago I just could no longer tolerate all the voices.
I don’t think all of that group can understand that I am not able to tell that I am hallucinating. I have this yes I am hallucination based on sound, sometimes what is being said (like the phrase Locked Up), how deep in my ear it rings further down where I feel it is in my ear canal the more likely it is a hallucination), what type of sound where, that sort of things.
Then there are times I find out because a delusion framework has been dismantled so all those sounds that related to it must have been fake, like shadow figure Joe and all his words, or when other people point out that it can’t be real.
So how can I call a friend when I am acting in a bad spell that is close to taking action against me. I don’t know if I am explaining things right but I guess what I want to say is a gradation of how I am comletly delusion./wraped up in hallucinating. The reason why I went into the hospital was cause there were other factors involved like family taking care of other family and an upcoming birthday, and I was also in a mixed state so coordinating an attempt was beyond hard.
I just worry that all I will get like I did in the hospital, it is is all in your head so just don’t do it. What can I do to cope with these hallucination/delusions that tell me negative things?
If you were admitted recently in hospital you must wait a few weeks till the new or adjusted meds starts working. By the way what meds are you on? I don’t know what advice to give you regarding your voices telling you negative things. My antipsychotic works well for me i had no voices last two years.
@anon27884915 While the volume and noise has decreased there are still voices around. Yesterday was just another time where I had neg. voices and I didn’t realize till after the whole thing was over after it passed for a while.
Another thing, and maybe it was adjustment timing before last episode, i was hearing stuff
Meds are (as of April. 13, 2019) Depokate, gabapeintin, cogentin, abilify (shot and pill). I know that I will be on something similar to abilify come next shot
Does your gabapentin help you? I am prescribed 300mg, but don’t take it regularly. I’m supposed to take it 3 times a day. I’m thinking about starting to. Maybe it will help me stop the habit of drinking to self medicate. I learned that our brains produce GABA, our natural stress and anxiety relief, etc. GABApentin’s name now makes perfect sense to me.
In short yes. I still had to work on getting anxiety issues through coping but I don’t think without it I would have been able to use those skills. I can’t comment about self medicating cause I’ve never had the issue.