My therapist asked if this mental illness defined who I am as a person.
What do you think ?
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I think it has affected me and thereby affected my personality.
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yea i hate myself
Yes, the medicine and illness have changed my emotions therefore changing my personality.
Mainly though, my delusions ruin my confidence. Because i am almost sure other people know what im thinking or feeling. (I believe most guys think im gay or just below them. I think most girls think im not as good as other guys or a pervert).
And along with that delusions ruin my conversations because i have no confidence to begin with.
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My main personality is intact but my ever-present delusion and meds has impacted me. Sometimes I think my delusion defines me. I am perfectly capable of having normal conversations with people and I do it all the time, but I am ‘hiding’ my delusion. No question that MI has affected me but I hope I still have my basic personality.
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I think I am a little bit of a schizoid personality. I tend to spend an inordinate amount of time alone in my apartment, away from people. I am very happy this way. I keep myself busy with many interests. Neither me nor my pdoc is worried about it. It is not based upon paranoia, delusions, worry or anxiety. I just truly enjoy my own company.
it has changed me since i have come to have this illness. my partner is affected more than i am but i have seen it frustrate her more than anything that i’m not who i use to be. i can’t carry on conversations anymore. i have a hard hard time thinking and planning ahead.
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My therapist and prescriber have told me I’m very chill… And they assume I was before my break as well, just more now.
It’s honestly hard to even remember what my personality was like before.
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Before Sz I was very talkative and filled with ideas. that was a big part of my personality. now with sz i have poverty of speech, and it never goes away. I have lost a defining aspect of my personality. Im not like these people who suffer the occasional symptom once a month or so, my entire neurotransmission has changed.
i have also developed certain ideas/interests which i would never have focused on preillness. I have lost interest in the things which once defined me.
this disease has COMPLETELY changed me
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Yeah. I’ve never experienced life without mental illness so it’s sort of become merged with who I am. I don’t know what I’d be like without it. My therapist says basically I don’t know how to define myself outside of my illness either.
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Sz has become part of my personality but not part of my soul. Whatever happens after this life I will be free of sz.
Yes , it defines me. For now anyway.
at first I thought it didn’t but the more I think about it… my childhood, my character - my delusions about reality completely defines my character. Secretly I still believe most of my delusions have some sort of deeper meaning - maybe reincarnation or some other weird stuff. LOL I mean we know very little about this life and death and stuff. So who knows what we are experiencing is only ’ a chronic illness’ ? what do you think?
My gradoise defines a big part of my personality 
I just try my best to hide these stuff.
I guess it is… indirectly, because it affects my mood greatly. I’m able to manage without verbal agression in social situations, but then I start to feel really angry about what I have heard earlier even if I am not sure if the situation actually took place. I’m often pissed. I also don’t trust people in general and perhaps that is what causes my bad mood while dealing with them and why I usually drink a lot during social meetings. I guess that people having fun actually drive me mad, because when I’m at work I don’t have such problems.
Schizophrenia is not the only illnesss that permits one from enjoying their own mind. Depression, bipolar, OCD, anxiety. These will do that too.
That’s a pretty good description of what it feels like to be mentally ill though.
I think my schiz and ocd helped to shape my personality and ultimately make me who i am. So i guess its not part of my personality but my MI has fostered my personality to what it is. The horrible psychosis i went thru for 3 straight years is what has changed that personality to the one i struggle with currently.
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Been so long, all the meds in the world could not get it out of my head
Unfortunately, yes, schizophrenia is part of my personality now. Before I enjoyed going outside and socializing, now I’ve become a very quiet person. I only really talk with my dad and mom. I was always a little shy but now I’m scared to even talk to the cashier when I get cigarettes. When I’m off meds I do way better with those things, I just don’t like having to deal with the symptoms. I don’t know what happened to the person I was.
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My personality is basically a disorder, so yeah.
Yes, it is all I am and all I’ve come to know. Reality has degenerated into nothing more than a very thin, hideous veil, which I gladly stay on the far outside of. Humans are horrible. I am the dark creatures in my head. And together they all have but a single name, which I will not mention… because they do not want me to. So I, essentially, do not want to. I’ve become horrid and wretched… yet there’s still that immense, infinite capacity for love in me that the humans cannot seem to tap into for themselves on this earthly plane. I’m meant for darkness and despair, hatred and transcendence… but also love and light in the form of hope, courage, compassion and integrity. Through my illness I evolve far, far, far… far beyond the physical to the complete spiritual and even beyond, higher and higher and lower and lower all at the same time, or in rampaging bursts, depending upon how the balance in me is tipped. And it’s always the random winds of the universe that tip it. I’m just going on a very short journey in this earthly, useless flesh, towards a higher, albeit very difficult-to-attain purpose. My pain is completely transformative.