It is for me. The reason should be deep in my genes. I cannot seem to be able to do what I need/ want to do.
Low energy and bad mood, unable to achieve my fitness goals, fluctuations in sex drive, my cognition skills are through the floor. I cannot seem to be able to learn anything, or focus on anything.
I had a blood work done, but it doesn’t reflect it (kinda hoping for me to be low Testosterone, so I can jump in replacement therapy, but my T is allright).
I don’t know which door to knock, or which doctor to call, to fix this ■■■■.
Life is hard for me
I have nasty voices and extreme anxiety I can’t do stuff I used to do
I cannot cook properly like I used to I don’t do as much exercise like I used to
I forgot to mention I have right foot pain every time I see my mum in the home and while I’m out at the centre or waiting
I get relief from resting and putting my feet up with hot water bottle but this foot pain is unexplainable
Life became comfortable when I started doing more. There are challenges, generally fun ones or very ordinary ones. It felt rough when I was in my bed with no commitments. Knocks on wood.
I don’t know I’ve been going through it for 9 years. Had paranoid sz for 6. Then bipolar, insomnia and a bunch of other stuff the last three. Been homeless three years wandering Michigan. Got told I was going to get stabbed today. I’ve been up 6-7 days. I have blisters all over my feet making me walk almost backwards. I’d say objectively it’s bad. The worst part for me is boredom.
I am getting a lot more energy and motivation from vitamin supplements. They make life easier. But now life is getting very expensive as I am spending over $300 a month on vitamins.
In many ways it’s easy - I have family, a roof over my head, food, health insurance and drs that currently are helping me.
In some ways it’s hard - lots of trauma in my past, and paranoia. Now that my current drug regimen helps my paranoia, it takes a long time to think things through and a long time to learn.
Life is difficult. I think right now I’m about to go through the hardest thing I’ve faced in years. I’m a little apprehensive about how it will turn out. Most of my life is frustration interspersed with some really good moments.