Is it possible to find true love when you’re this sick

I’ve been in love before. It was one of the worst experiences of my life. My boyfriend constantly sexually abused and orally raped me, and drove me to attempted suicide and cutting. He was not at all accepting of my diagnoses, and mocked me for them constantly. Now I’m alone again. No one will ever love me. I’m so sick, I’m shy, and weird, and ugly, and awkward. Am I gonna be alone forever? I hate feeling this way.

Aren’t you like 15? Those are very hard years even without all the extra stuff you’ve been through. As far as love goes, give yourself time. You probably need some therapy for the traumas you’ve been through and need to work with your pdoc to get the best treatment possible. I’m sure when the time is right you will meet someone. But you have to take care of yourself so you can handle being in a relationship. Does that make sense?

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Yeah, thanks for the advice. I just feel like I’ll never be a normal teenager, everyone else my age just seems so happy.

Hang in there. Those teenage years are hard. I’ll bet those so-called happy people are struggling, too. You’ll get through it though.

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Find your own path to happiness.

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Yes. Just don’t marry anyone crazier than yourself.

That is a good rule to live by!

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Learn from that relationship and move on. There maybe a guy out there for u who loves u for exactly who u are. So forget about him.
I find that if anyone is abusive that is not the easiest situation to take in ‘advice’ from their criticism but might aswell. N then move the ■■■■ away.

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Hey I’ve been through the same thing and constantly struggled with the knowledge that I’d never be normal. It’s true, we’ll never be normal. And that’s ok. We can live despite that and there are people who will love us despite that.

I was resigned to dying alone but I recently got a boyfriend who is super super kind, loving and proud that I’m his girlfriend. I wasn’t expecting it to happen at all. But it can happen. You’re still young just hang in there.

And I’m really sorry you had to deal with all of that.

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Not every ten is happy. My girl is almost 14 and is dealing with sexual coercion. It is hard at that age. I’m sorry you went through that.

These things will most certainly change with maturity. I was all these things and look at me now

https://vignette.wikia.nocookie.net/uncyclopedia/images/3/33/Ugly_man_2.jpg/revision/20090111105858

So just goes to show you can change/adjust with time. And you’ll find yourself :blush:

And being sick can change too. New meds and treatments will come out and you’re so young you probably haven’t tried many meds and I wish I had insight into my illness at your age!! All the best to you!!

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I met my husband while full blown sick. He loves me and shows me love all the time. There is hope!

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