Do not go off meds.
You are thinking normally because of the meds. You aren’t better, the meds are making you feel better. Same goes for me. I know the side effects suck. I am on a few handfuls of meds a day.
It is possible to control your behaviors if you have symptoms. I do it all the time. However, I recommend not having significant symptoms by taking enough meds.
I cannot recommend going off meds. It is insane to go off the meds.
I have bad days and worse days. I have a constant level of symptoms but my careful dosage keeps me mentally and physically sharp enough to brush them off. Any more meds and I won’t get out of bed. Also more side effects. I have enough side effects and enough trouble brushing off chronic nightmares and taking my meds and not throwing them all up every morning.
I do keep control of myself despite a certain level of symptoms. I am an outstanding psychology student, that is why and how I do that. I also go to therapy in addition to meds. I also have a certain personality which is very resilient.
I’m egotistical enough to say that I am smart enough and tough enough to live well despite chronic symptoms. Most people aren’t.
A little background- before the illness I was a fighter and a straight A student at an international school. That’s high caliber.
The best defense is a good offense, that’s what I say and how I think. That’s unusual.
Take your meds and take it easy. You don’t want to make your life harder by quitting meds.
And by the way, the withdrawals from meds will make you change your mind quickly and take more meds than ever before.
Don’t do it.