Is it good to be in delusion of grandeur little?

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I feel special don’t know why.

Only when I feel special, I feel like to be productive.

That word “Feeling Special” should be present in all, if I am not wrong.

But when feeling special becomes more, the suspicious thoughts start.

I do take med’s on time.

The time I used Minoxidil this feeling shot up to extreme levels.

After that it dropped, and took away most of the symptoms.

Only this remains. even if you guys notice about my helicopter unusual belief.

I feel of high importance.

Or all this, is a false perception? And I am doing OK ?

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It helps when I have to walk for an hour. There is simply no other way to pass time.

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OMG I don’t even understand you. I am lost.

Are you checking if I am stable :crossed_fingers:

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Delusions are a lonely place and the world they inhabit dies with you. Stay in reality, even if it hurts.

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Thanks @crazydiamond444 Strong words.
Reality is very hard to face especially for me.
I don’t want to be in a delusional state.
I think I need to learn more,
before I comment on some thing like this.

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I had grandeur since childhood.
I always felt special, chosen one, messiah etc.

I have my own reality show.
I’m the center of attention for many.

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How do you manage to come out of it?

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I never really come out of it.
I’m a Buddha, or a schizoBuddha,
as Meher Baba says.

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But you know deep with in the difference.
I cant figure out a way, why I feel special.
Like my eye blinks and I am here.
Literally here talking to you.

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What difference?
It’s special to be me.
I can’t describe it.
It counterattacks depression.

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Or the term I used is wrong, being grandeur little.

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In my opinion, grandeur is a natural feeling
of a soul that has found its way back to the One.

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I think its not grandeur I feel,
I feel overwhelmingly unique so are all,
I do feel that deep with in.
But my existence is what I question, why me?
Seated here and typing, what am I typing.

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It sounds like existential crisis. Right?

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See I had to google this as well, I think I am one lame fellow, need to know and learn some thing before I post it here.

I checked, I don’t know if I lack meaning or not.

Its like I am here, here means in real. I am here.
Doing fine.
I know there will be, some where, a hidden name to this.

I think I better take my med’s and sleep.

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If you feel you need some silence
and peace,
sleep.
I rest my brain when i sleep.

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Sorry, If It sounded to you that way.
I am just worried, about what I type.

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Everything is ok.
No need to worry.

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Delusions are not healthy. If you want to feel better about yourself, accomplish something. (Doesn’t have to do with jobs or money.)

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You and I should talk. We seem very similar in thought process. I came to the realization this past weekend that there is no reality show, at least for me. The reason you or I were the center of attention is because we weren’t living in the same reality as everyone else. Being out of tune with creation, we stand out. The truth hurts. Realize it now before you waste any more time living in a lonely fantasy. I say this out of love because I was in the exact same position you were, only probably even worse. Be in the real world. Find meaning in being a part of the collective whole. If you need to talk get back to me. We seem very similar. Good luck.

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