Ironico-Philosophicus

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So even after meds I still have some remaining internal world of ideas that I can turn inwardly to. Even though thinking is harder, I don’t find it at all difficult to look inwardly, even though it is often looking into complete silence. There are a handful of things I think about regularly and some of them are related, but one of the most interesting things to me is irony. Often I find myself thinking of some of the thoughts I had when having symptoms, and trying to pick up the pieces. When I was sick I had an unusual conception of irony. I had a sort of paranoid distrust of the direction thinking about irony had gone which was about literature, as I was constantly thinking of regime, and instead favored a kind of social-physical understanding of irony where differences between appearance / perception or truth and the actual reality created material process. So even though I didn’t like analyzing irony in literature in one sense, I was obsessed with how literature created irony in creating representations of reality that differed from reality, and how society would undergo processes that were essentially ironic in nature. I had mass thoughts on this subject ranging from how people in society react to different types of irony such as laughing at comic irony, or sanctioning ironies that are not considered conventionally ironic etc., to the kinds of ironic processes that occur. Schizophrenia took on an ironic meaning in my thinking as a physical manifestation of irony, and part of ironic social process as various types of ironic situations occurred in relation to it, from responding to irony of someone for whom perception was in conflict with reality, that behaved in a way that was not expected based on what was dictated by the context, and even the paradoxical, nonintuitive and enigmatic nature of the disease which again creates conflicts between appearance and reality, and what I saw as ironical social process that I guess are most closely relatable to Marx vis a vis the writings that inspired him. Anyway even posting this topic is a little ironic as it creates an appearance of my thoughts that are only a fraction of what I thought about, but that reality is unknowable to anyone else, so any comment or judgement etc based on this will be to some degree ironic given that the truth of the situation is subjective and uknowable to anyone else, and people will only respond to the objective ‘facts’ about it that I have stated.