Like in obsessive thinking around the NHS and my treatment team having top secret folders on me and I’m a case study. I also have intrusive thoughts about a microchip in my left armpit and that they’ve planted a listening device in the lamppost on the road outside my house, spying on me. Also just received a friends requested on Facebook from somebody I don’t know from New York, I live in England (I blocked them) so they are spying on my internet usage too and monitoring me.
I find it hard to distract myself. I spend hours and hours reading targeted individuals, awake for hours with intrusive and obsessive thoughts, I know its not good for me but I can’t divert my brain on other subjects. My pdoc proscribed 5mg daily off Haldol on top of my current Invega 100mg monthly.
I spoke to my community nurse about these intrusive thoughts but I can’t help thinking that he is in on it too and is spying on me. I would just like peace.