(may trigger for warning)
Like I said in my intro to this community. I had discussed me being psychic and I know that Iam and I do struggle with visions besides my schizophrenia so a times I don’t know how to separate them at times. Like for instance when at my apartment the elevator door opens by itself and I don’t even touch it like it has a smart phone attached to it or something… kind of creepy but then again. I think could I really be doing this…
Other problems I’ve been having is these stages of tranzing I go through almost into a deep euphoria stage where everything disappears and goes dark or things start to get wavey like. I can’t see through it but it glows and changes form and then I refocus and it goes away so I stop doing at times but when I get tunnel vision or start to focus on things is when it starts to happen the most. Or like my head jolts really fast when I’m around other Angels. That’s how I know there around me at times. Finally I get these clairvoyant feelings at times that don’t go away I don’t understand why I know the things I know about people places or things.
I did have my remote viewing and my cognition but it disappeared and I think it has something to do with the government because I know back in the day they use to hunt them down and I’m sure its the same way nowadays, but I’m sure there a little more highly advanced in how they go about dealing with psychics maybe with a computer or something to restrict them from using there remote viewing or cognition for financial reasons or something ------- like or maybe they really do have control for it and they protect it or what they classified information I’m sure I couldn’t find much on there DTIC website theres some but not much about any of this. Good thing its a mental health problem.
I suppose this a head and heart conflict which one do I follow huh? inner psychic in me or a made up mental health problem covered up to make me look crazy. I’m sure I’m not the only one out there that’s like this in my situation. They must have Angel detectives or something that work from home on computers. For other tortured souls like me that need help in the unknown. I can sense them sometimes but I don’t say anything because I respect the boundaries. I’m sure it has something to do with the government I don’t know its none of my business but it sure feels like it!
Then what I find really interesting about some of this is some military personal they set these Angels up because they hate something deep inside of them that they have that represents something on a computer. Which in my opinion it don’t really matter about how they use that technology on who ever. So that eliminates the Angels out there who watch over us. I think more or less its because of $$$. Or they really hate the fact that there manipulated and tortured and they find to take it out on them and they try to make the Angels look bad by doing this and pointing the finger at them for this like something is wrong with them. I’m sure some of the Angels out there are not innocent either so I’m sure it goes both ways, but I mean these people plan ahead and then they plan ahead on themselves and it keeps going and going and the government makes billions off of it. Wait a minute I mean the state does for every cent they sit in prison or they just pay off there fines and go about there lives. These guys are trained to do this ■■■■ to people. I still respect my country and my government but some of this stuff is messed up in my opinion and we still love them and try find ways to cope with this and survive it with god and those silent weapons we posess.
I guess I don’t what I’m telling myself by saying all of this. That lines are crossed and I have to live with it and accept into my life and live with it and let the boundaries define them selves.
the main reason I post a lot of this because online its kind of like conspiracy in a way you never know or believe what people or saying in forums or sites especially with nicknames etc. its not facebook or anything and even then people spoof themselves. They got fake Ids and everything they wouldn’t know! You could setup a whole fake facebook with fake friends and no one would know who you really are? You could all fake ids and names to go with it and rock a social network and nobody would know your real identity. crazy huh?.. Well unless they knew networking and how to log onto computers but then you would have to wait it out to see if names pop up but if there in a remote location etc. makes it a little harder. I’m sure theres way around things and around them as well loop holes everywhere. Especially now a days with proprietary operating systems and how there setup but a good router will do the best especially with good NAT capabilities.
Am I paranoid no not really don’t feel it maybe delusional but no paranoia no feelings like people are out to get me or attack me its just delusional more or less in some ways or another.
I don’t know what else to say my mind is going BLANK! If you want to reply go for it. if not so be it was kind of expression in a way to get things off my chest.
Have a good one!