I have a question, does anyone else with Schizophrenia ever feel like their unable to make up their minds about anything in particular? Say you have the option do A, B, or C but you could only pick out one of them. If you did A then you miss out on doing B and so on. Both A and B are things you’ve wanted to do for a long time and C is something new you want to try out. Other than not being able to do all 3 there really isn’t a downside.
In a more specific example I have money I can spend on myself. I can either spend it on new music, yet the only thing is I can get this music for free listening on two music streaming services I listen to. I could by sets of books I’ve wanted a while back ago…or I can buy a bunch of new books. Or go and buy some new movies, I really can’t decide what I want. I’ve gotten some of the music I’ve wanted, I’m debating if I want to get the rest, or just go and get the books…
I’m also having a hard time deciding if what I’ve written in my story the past couple days is any good or if I should wipe it out and start over… again. I hate not being able to make up my mind about stuff, does anyone else with Schizophrenia have this issue or is this more of a personal problem?
no not really. take ur dilema for instance. i would quickly decide on which ones i wanted first and foremost then save for the rest. say, you’ve got some music you like so why not go for the books the next time and movies the time after and so on. the only decision i have difficulty with is deciding whether to shower or bathe. that’s it really. xxx
All the time man. I can’t make up my mind, to be or not to be. To go on vacation or not to go, I’m very indecisive these days. To go get pizza or not get pizza, it’s endless, and it always takes me time to make up my mind, then I change it back.
It sucks. I used to be pretty decisive when I was younger.
Im guessing this is a human thing but I feel that sz makes us particularly critical or the decisions we are to make or are currently making. Some say decision making is a stress dealer. If the voices are trying to make get you to depend on them they could make you sensitive to your “inability” to make well informed/guided decisions, alternatively they could be doing that to jack up your stress levels for any of the bounty of things that could help them achieve…
You know grain of salt so on and so on…
Sometimes, once I have the money to buy things I’ve wanted, it’s then that I’m not sure I want them any more. Sometimes I just squander it on something else.
With the writing - put it away for a good while, maybe a year + then go back to it. I did that and could more easily see what you like + where you want to make changes.
Writing and indecision go hand in hand. Many writers agonize about what words they put on the page. A good place to get books is the Salvation Army, Goodwill, or some other cheap store. I got a hardback in good condition that had all of Jane Austen’s works for $2.00 in the Salvation Army store. Sometimes you can get some good books cheap there.
my indecision days can be so rediculous. ive litterally gotten stuck in an isle in a grocery store deciding if i should have peanut butter or not and ill just be there for like 10 minutes thinking about all the reasons it would be a good idea or not
when i still heard voices i used to get so annoyed and i would just ask them if they could help me weigh out my options on making the choice .
ex. Voice: well you could buy it. Or you could wait till tomorrow. But what if it could help? But you could save money. We think you need it but its still expensive. But there is no reason for you to not buy it. but you could still buy it.
For me it gets really silly when I find myself putting a greater cosmic meaning to the smallest decisions… Maybe it’s magical thinking… or delusions… but I get stuck and I have to tell myself… or have someone tell me… it will be OK. The universe is so vast that somethings don’t matter.
If I wear a blue tee-shirt today that might attract a specific energy and cause me to talk to someone I don’t really know. But if I wear a gray tee-shirt that might attract other gray things and cause it to rain.
This one hit me a few weeks ago and I can look back and work through it and see some humor to it… If ONLY my tee-shirt choice could cause it to rain… I could help that drought in California.
