I feel for you, my worst negative symptom was anhedonia back when I was on zyprexa. Every day was hell to me during that time I was so dysfunctional. Now I feel pleasure but its still not as good as it was before sz, I am unable to experience/comprehend experiences as I once did due to concrete thinking. I can’t have complex pleasures anymore and I can’t really get into things. I don’t have passion or emotional complexity like what I did before sz.