I struggle with this a lot. It mainly has to do with my conflicts with family members who try to tell me that I don’t have a physical disability, and that I’ve been lied to, or I’m lying to myself.
Sometimes I feel like I am faking my symptoms when I know that I’m not. I know my hallucinations, my physical symptoms, and everything is real, but I’m constantly worried about someone exposing me as a fraud.
I know this occurs a lot in the physical disability community but do you guys also have this problem? If so, how do you reassure yourself and know that your symptoms are true and genuine?
All the time. It’s part of my OCD though so mt doubts about myself run real deep. The beat thing I’ve done to help myself is finding alternative explanations instead of being a fake. Like for example at one point I was convinced I was faking sza, even though my symptoms are clearly real, so I figured out that all my behaviors j worried were faking were in fact ways to get validation because OCD causes me to seek reassurance all the time. Idk if this helps but just know lots of people feel this way here. It could be delusional too.
Me, too. Also family or having someone say stuff to you that contradicts the truth really bring you down. I hear you- things are so hard when you believe yourself to be a fraud.
Sometimes family just doesnt want to accept their child has limitations. My health coach explained this to me once. Jt was kind of helpful. Like maybe they’re not doing it to be malicious but literally cant accept a different future than they thought yoh would have.
I’m doing okay with it these past few days. It kind of comes and goes for me, depending on my mood.
Yeah- my mom lost that physically healthy child that she desired. She had to take care of me a lot. After I started walking again, I lost all hope because well…my genetic results came back and my mom/dad gave me the genes. But she’s denying because my mutations are still largely unknown but my doctor said “mutations on this gene can affect muscle coordination…etc”.
So I don’t know. I hope she will come to terms with it.
Yes-most definitely . Regular mental conflict a la ‘Am I mentally ill or just a dysfunctional twat?’
That If do well on an IQ test anyone else could do well too.