Ugh just had a flashback and now I feel even worse. I’m so ■■■■■■■ tired. Luckily voices aren’t bad today but still feeling watched.
Parents also have no sense of boundaries. And I’m so bored and I have nothing to take my mind off of this.
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaa
I’m sorry you guys @Noise
Flashbacks are horrible. I totally feel you on that. If you wish you are welcome to pm me. I hope your day gets better. 
I am unable to start PMs cause I’m still “new” but I’d like to talk about it.
It’s just a rough day cause I have nothing to distract myself really.
Thank you @ThePickinSkunk I’m glad I’m not the only one who deals with this
How come? You’ve been posting here for quite some time.
That’s okay @Noise I understand. My flashbacks are from a sexual assault when I was ten. They can be paralyzing. A young boy shouldn’t have gone through that. It hurts and it’s gonna hurt for some time yet. I don’t understand this world.
I don’t really remember/ know but it’s inconvenient af. I did something the mods didn’t like.
I was also sexually abused as a child. I don’t understand why people had to hurt us like that. We were just kids.
The memories just get overwhelming sometimes you know?
But you’re right it’s gonna hurt. But I just gotta try to stay hopeful that I can heal. I hope you can heal as well.
Yes I hear ya. He was a family friend about 4 years older than me. Not only was I ■■■■■■ in a fishouse I endured name calling and gut punches. I thought it was all part of growing up. My dad eventually told the ■■■■■■■ to stay away from me. Wtf. People suck ass.
Mine was my psychiatrist. It started with her just touching and it evolved slowly until it turned into rape. She kept feeding my delusions. She convinced my family I was dangerous. And she kept prescribing things that were horrible to my health made me ■■■■■■■ crazy.
My parents and her beat the ■■■■ out of me. And she totally ■■■■■■ with my head. I just want her dead.
What kills me is she doesn’t have any regret for this. She doesn’t lose sleep. How can a person live with themselves when they do something like that?!!
I’m glad your dad told the guy to ■■■■ off. It sounds horrible what you went through. We’re both safe now though. (Hugs)
Yes we are safe now and hugs to you as well. You are very sweet.
Thank you for listening to me. 
it helps more than you know. I hope I didn’t push you into bad memories.
Your very welcome and you didn’t push at all.
Now my father is throwing a tantrum over electronics. He keeps yelling and it’s scaring me.
I can see why that would scare you. Sometimes a door opening will give me the jitters. Are you able to leave the house for a bit?
Yeah I’m going for a walk right now just cause I couldn’t handle it. but it’s nice out today at least!!
It is nice out. Here in Minnesota we still have snow on the ground. Have a nice walk.
Oh I love snow! I’ve only seen it twice though but it’s so pretty 
It’s only in the 90s here in arizona so it’s not too hot yet!! All the trees are blooming!!
Sorry you’re dealing with that. I know it sucks 
I hope all of this bad stuff passes soon for you.
Lol only in the 90s. That’s funny. You just gave me a boost today. Thanks. But heat totally kills me.
Found out I lost touch and apparently bought food or something while on my walk. Oh well 