I need PTSD narrative help TW

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For those of you who don’t know my history, my first memory is of abuse. I was abused through my childhood and as an adult.

I was supposed to have a sleep study but I was inexplicably overwrought with panic episode. The following night I remembered being awakened being choked.

I’ve decided to do a PTSD narrative. I need to know why I don’t sleep. Thing is, I get flooded with other traumas, get suicidal, and block things out.

Has anyone ever been through this? My therapist is supportive. She said it’s up to me if I do this or not.

Thanks for reading this long post. It means a lot. :hugs:

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Well a man tried to have sex with me in the Men’s Room when I was under 9 years old, but that’s not a lifetime of abuse.

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I’m so sorry that happened to you. Were you able to journal about it or work on it in therapy?

I’ve not been successful yet working through this stuff.

What happened to you wasn’t your fault.

Take care. :hugs:

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Thanks. I haven’t really told anyone about it. But that’s why I said I tend to be friends with adult men who were sexually abused, or exploited as one guy said.

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I’m going to work through my ptsd starting in January when I start seeing my therapist

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You seem to understand about thinking it’s your fault.

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@anon54988740

I’ve been dx with mine since 2003 and I’m just beginning to work on PTSD. I tend to dissociate. It wasn’t my fault.

It wasn’t your fault. Keep telling yourself that until you know it’s true.

@LilyoftheValley

I wish you peace. You may have to feel pain to get through it, but you’re smart. I’m here if bbn you need me.

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I hope you work through your PTSD. I have a 56 year old woman friend who has PTSD.

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That’s very kind of you to say.

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Well I know it’s not easy.

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I guess I should say I’m 61 years old, after I said I have a 56 year old woman friend. Also I’m gay and we are just friends.

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I’m happy for you. I’m 48, straight, female. :hugs:

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Thanks @JustTrish. You can talk to me too

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@LilyoftheValley

Thanks. Maybe we can support each other.

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I’m doing a trauma narrative now.

I started doing it a few years ago but wasn’t ready.

Now I’ve gotten to a point where I’m doing better with my coping skills and have started to look at the trauma head on.

Good luck @JustTrish.

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Thanks @anon1517417. I tried EMDR a few years ago, but attempted suicide.

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Thanks guys. 1534

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I was abused throughout my childhood as well

I’ve attempted to write some of the things that happened down but I found it too painful.

It made me feel exposed

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The men have read my diary so I don’t keep one anymore. They know everything already, they know too much. I’m not letting them have all my internal thoughts too

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@Noise @LilyoftheValley

I started writing down a narrative today. I only wrote 2 sentences. I’m not sure I’ll be able to do this.

It’s difficult.

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