It is hard for me to understand why I feel like this because I don’t have a diagnosis of anything with my mood but i never had the chance to talk about it during an appointment as my main thing has been trying to get help for voices but I am sleeping like 3 hours at night and taking a nap in the middle of the day but i eat like every 12 hours and i probably would start fasting if i didnt have to eat for my meds to work, i think my last med was so sedating that it calmed me and my mood instantly got horrible when i stopped taking it if i even lowered my dosage i start getting these symptoms again, i have racing thoughts again, irritable as ■■■■, luckily i haven’t had mood swings as bad as i used to, i am wanking everyday in different and more weird ways and i used to be a person who would go weeks without it because its too much work and i jus want to be lazy, also i get angry about little stuff to the point where i want to hurt people, i feel like how i used to off meds how i am unstable all the time and punching holes in walls but i haven’t done that anymore because my landlord is a relative and i don’t wanna move away i have already ■■■■■■ up 3 doors and kicked a hole in my wall in my room that i have covered up with a picture. i have a pretty weird mood for a guy, like most of the dudes i have know are all chill and i get mad easy and can never stay still, i have had problems with my mood before psychosis and they just got worse when it started. i feel crazy and i see my psychiatrist in a week but i have researched every possible med i can take to make me feel better from antidepressants, mood stabilizers, anxiety meds, i have looked at the majority of them and found ones that i think can suit me and allow me to lose weight still and not have too bad of an interaction hopefully soon one of them whichever drug type my doc thinks i need and one that i am ok with taking will work and i can go back to being normal, well not really normal but drugged up enough to feel like other people
i know ap’s are probably the most prescribed thing for feeling like this but i really dont wana take another ap for this, i rather feel crazy all the time than take anything that can mess up me getting my weight down