I used to be normal all my life, so creative, funny, and a bit introvert, but I remember to have good friendships and I’ve never had any problem with the studies or motivation.
Nowadays I don’t have good friendships/conversations at all, 0 creativity, and feel myself unable to do a normal job or even study. I feel so “delayed” ?
My PDOC says that Disorganized schizophrenia/hebephrenia no longer exists like a diagnosis, and in the last consultation he told me that to make a schizophrenia diagnosis I should have the main symptoms ( I think he referred to the positive ones like allucinations, delusions,etc).
In that moment, I just accepted what he was telling to me because I feel bad if I contradict him in diagnostic things because he is the expert, but now thinking… I have positive symptoms for sure
I think I have disorganized speech according to the description, but it’s so hard to notice it in the consultation where I’m not expontaneous or we don’t have a random conversation.
I feel myself incoherent a lot of times my day a day, and unable to make a decision properly without regret.
Negative symptoms for sure.
Also I have been experiencing disorganized behaviour like doing things without purpose, being so disorganized, inadequate expresion, etc etc
Also, in the past I was sure that I have some disease even with the tests that says NO in the hand. (delusion)
In addition I feel a big cognitive impairment, and he sais that he don’t recommends doing to me the IQ test because he is SURE that I 'm in the average, but if he was so sure he would let me doit for me to see because I’ve said him a lot of times
I don’t know why but I always leave the consultation the same way…
Without anything clear…
A depressed person don’t have a normal mood, and don’t have my cognitive impairment and neither is unable to perform a conversation.
Why my PDOC is that way and what can I do ?
The unic symptom that I haven’t had of schizophrenia it’s allucinations and it isn’t essential to make a diagnosis.