Im so depressed about my appearance. I just dont want to carry on

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I feel as though I have nothing truly to live for. I hate my appearance and look like a man I’m also dumb and stupid I have no motivation for anything

My hair is dry and falling out and I’m now getting grays at 26. I have stretch marks everywhere fat thys and a square bum I’m also very hairy.

I wish my mother had had a miscarriage with me tbh

I want to be a book nerd someone who is academic and clever.instead I’m this. I hate myself so much and wish I was dead.this illness has taken everything I liked about myself and turned it to ■■■■. I hate my body now it’s so ugly and now I’m getting belly fat. Nothing looks nice anymore.

I wish I could donate my life to someone else. Even then I don’t think anyone would want it

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Geez. That sounds like a terrible way to feel.

There’s nothing wrong with you the way you are.

But if you’re desperate for change then speak to your psychiatrist . Olanzapine can make you gain weight.

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I just want to be someone else. Doesn’t even have to be drop dead gorgeous. I just want to be normal looking and look feminine. I now have pcos due to the fat gained from olanzapine. Im also dyslexic and not intelligent in the slightest. I feel like an idiot everyday. I cant read books at all and my concentration is terrible. I’m stuck in a dead end job because of everything too

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You are not alone. There are millions of people out there more or less in the same situation. Life didn’t turn out the way I wanted.

As for my looks I mostly stopped caring at some point. Maybe it’s easier for a guy to not care so much about that, but it’s easier to live if you let up. I guess it depends on who or what we are comparing with. Gotta be realistic.

Things could change, so I hang on for myself, family and friends. Don’t give up!

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Talk to your psychiatrist about trying something else.

I’m the exact same. So I listen to audio books.

You can download the app called “audible” to your smart phone and listen to audio books.

Try that.

Well done on being able to work.

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You shouldn’t blame yourself for things that you are probably not responsible for. All you can do is try to improve your situation the best you can. Hope for some happiness.

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Lifes very short so we just have to accept were ill and take every good opportunity that comes along. Im nearly 50 yrs and theres lots here my age. Looks go out the window for everyone come middle age, accept yourself because your probably normal looking for your age. Ignore airbrushed social media, full of plastic surgery, botox and fillers. Ive struggled with confidence as well all my life so i understand the low confidence, theres lots of people like us not confident. Keep your eyes open for a easier job you can cope with if thats what you want. @anon25963852

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I’m so sorry you feel like that

It’s difficult to have confidence when voices are always saying bad things to us

Like @everhopeful said you should ask to your doctor another medication that doesn’t make gain weight

Try to do enjoyable workout on a regular basis

I recommend the YouTube Channel Zumba class

For your hair, it’s probably because of stress, buy some products to moisture and you could dye your hair

I sometimes have this issue too with gray hair, I get you

Try to meditate every day, talk to your therapist about your stress level or talk with a sophrologist

For your job, if you can try to change job with something less stressful

If you can’t, meditate regularly during your job, try to find things that are pleasant in your job and be grateful for them

Fighting

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In a world of excess and extremes it’s common to feel dissatisfied. I’m dissatisfied with a lot of things about myself. But I accept that a lot is beyond my control and I think if I were loved I could accept my flaws greater then living in isolation. I think if others don’t love us then self love is the second best thing. Reflecting too much on life isn’t good. Going over flaws doesn’t make you love yourself more. Everyone has an ideal self. Sometimes we make that person too far out of reach. Living in the present and having a humble opinion of self in a world of extremes is probably a happy medium for an ideal self. Do something for yourself today. Something simple.

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Im obese, have acne scars, a large unattractive nose, and a bald spot.

Have no desire to kill myself over this. You need to stop living based on other peoples approval. If you want to improve your appearance , you can, but looks arent everything. There are many other things in life to live for and many people have it worse.

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I agree with @Bowens

Try not to live based on others pecrception of wat u think u need to do in order 2 b accepted

Im working on just liking me for who i am. My strengths and how i can improve my limitations.

Feeling good about urself, regardless of everything the insta suggests we need 2 b

Is the way to not let anyone get u down

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I have a peer support specialist who is intersex, meaning she has XXY chromosomes and is both male and female.

she is very tall with a deep voice and is quite masculine despite identifying as a female.

She is an excellent peer. She is very supportive and kind. And has a fiancé who loves her. She has friends.

But she didn’t always have all that going for her. She went through therapy and worked on her daily life skills and emotional regulation skills etc. She became the best person she could be.

I’m glad she did that because she’s great! And you can be successful at a career too. It’s worth putting forth the effort. Don’t give up!

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Polite disagreement. Your nose is fine, you’ve got a distorted perception of it.

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Thank you, but you have not seen it from the side. :laughing:

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But maybe its partially distorted perception, as well.

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I’ve seen the shadow it throws on your face so I already have an idea. Large is not ugly, it’s just large. You would be ruggedly handsome if more slender and there is depth to your eyes. Give yourself some credit. You can also go full chrome with the scalp. Lean hard into it.

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