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I'm sad again

I found out today that our previous pastor passed away. I’ve known him my whole life and he was basically a grandpa to me. In fact when I was little I really did think he was one of my grandpas and got confused when others told me otherwise. I feel numb but violently sad at the same time. My eyes keep randomly leaking and I’ll start to just silently cry. I try not to let others see this happen. I dont know why I dont want them seeing. There’s emotion in me that wants to scream and punch things. But all I can do is silently cry. I’ve had residents I’ve cared for pass away, and distant aunts and uncles. But never anyone this close to me.

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I’m so sorry to hear of your loss. It is one of the most difficult things in life, to lose someone you love. The very best to you

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Condolences. Pastors are pretty special.

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Sorry for the loss of your friend, it’s okay to have a good cry

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I’m sorry for your loss @NeoPolitan02 It’s OK to grieve in whatever way you feel most comfortable. Take care.

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I’m so sorry :frowning: I know this must be hard for you… hang in there

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I’m sorry for your loss @NeoPolitan02

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But I dont know how to grieve. I dont know how to deal with this. What the hell am i supposed to do with this. I dont want to accept it. I want to pretend he’s still here what do I do with all this emotion. It just sits there. None of this is comfortable. I dont like any of it. I just want him back though I know I cant.

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