I have been through so many meds. I’ve been locked away in wards. Same ol ■■■■. Nothing is getting better.i don’t even want to leave my Apt. No matter what I take I ■■■■ up. I’m starting to believe that there’s no hope in feeling better. Any wise thoughts please. Y’all ever given up yet?
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Yes I gave up. It cost me many years of my life and a lot of suffering. Things can get better. Sending you good thoughts and energy. I hope things work out for you and you get the right help. Hang in there.
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Have you considered moving out of your apartment or have you already done that? @roxanna
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I don’t know if my words will have real meaning for you… I want to offer some comfort, even though I’m not a doctor—definitely not a professional—but I’ve read a lot. I believe that things can get better for everyone. Even significantly so, sometimes slowly and subtly… Personally, I won’t lie—I’ve been taking medication almost daily since 2018. (There was a period of over six months when I stopped, but now I’m on a low dose.)
I don’t know. My situation probably was never schizophrenia—but my brain was severely damaged by amphetamines. Even now, I still unnecessarily clench my hands, sometimes they tremble—I’m a ball of anxiety.
I went through a terrifying, roughly year-long psychosis between 2017–2018. I analyze everything deeply, and I thought I would never be okay. Even when I was already doing better, I thought, “well… it’s not going to get any better.” But steadily, year by year, things improved—even academically—from a poorly completed college program to fairly successful university studies, now even tuition-free (which is related to very high performance).
It’s frustrating, because as someone whose case might not exactly be schizophrenia, I can’t offer much advice.
Just—don’t give up. Feel what’s right for you. Trust the advice—of doctors; reading a lot and believing is important. I believe you’re going to be okay.
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do you smoke? quitting smoking can help a lot. Also living an overall healthy lifestyle. Eating healthy, drinking lots of water, exercising etc can do wonders for mental health. your brain is just part of your body so when your body does good it helps your brain.
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I feel a bit hopeless too.
8 years in and out of hospital. When is it gonna stop? When will I be free? When can life be normal.
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Good question and a wise one !
I am trying to think about it 
For the first time I am finding difficult to answer…
Will you be able to help me ? @roxanna
I think its because of my parents I am alive.
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I used my mind. Don’t give up to psychiatrist doctor. Finding many ways. How to select right dose of medicine depending on sleeping patterns. For this I cheated my doctor by hiding symptoms. But the purpose is how to improve. Some meditation and yoga. Some brain excercise also. Now ok in life.
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See If you can do CBT therapy. Ask your doctor. There’s research saying that it can help schizophrenia.
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Don’t give up hope @roxanna .
I know what hopelessness can feels like n it sucks.
Hang in there.
Maybe positive affirmations free on YouTube can help .
Maybe a sedative medication to help relax you.
Ketamine medically prescribed by dr has helped some I read and is very good anti depressant .
I don’t really go out either because of people and how treat me n what happened etc and just walking my dog down street is difficult.
Hope you feel better and more positive and optimistic soon.
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Don’t loose hope ! Science made so much progress in a century for knowing how the brain works, it’s only going to be better.
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My first two years with the disease were the worst. I often felt hopeless, suicidal and like giving up but I’m glad I didn’t. When I was at my sickest I never thought I would get better, I read about seeing a light at the end of the tunnel but I sure didn’t see one.
I suffered horribly and seemed to always be getting worse instead of better. But things change, I spent 8 months in the hospital and then got released to a nice group home. Pretty soon I got what the doctors called “stable”. My symptoms were not as intense and within 9 months I got a job and have been working ever since.
If I had given up I would have missed out on a bunch of fun stuff I’ve done since then. Since i’ve been sick I’ve been camping, water skiing, jet skiing, to comedy clubs to birthday parties and barbecues and too many restaurants and movies to count and a bunch of other things I would have missed out on if I had given up.
In the beginning of my disease I was really sick; I was paranoid and delusional every minute of every day. Like I said, I suffered horribly. But I did what was asked of me and went to the hospitals and group homes and support groups and vocational programs and saw the psychiatrists and therapists and took my medication. I kept an open mind and took suggestions and didn’t fight the people trying to help me.
I came from a very dark and low place but I got better when everything looked hopeless for years. Miracles happen. I never thought I would get better but I just put one foot in front of the other and now I still have delusions and paranoia but I am a hundred times better than when I was at my worst.
I’m sure you can get better @roxanna, many, many people recover to some degree. It’s just seeking out and accepting help and taking chances in your recovery and maybe making some positive changes. If you could find a support group I would recommend going. You may not like it but it would be a step in the right direction.
Or get a case manager or counselor who can visit you and you can talk out your problems with. I wish you good luck and keep fighting. Things look hopeless now but things change, sometimes for the better.
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I’ve given up a few times, but find dying to be quite unpleasant.
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I can relate.
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Agreed
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I’m hoping for a med change or dosage increase. I don’t drink or smoke. I’ve been with this burden for twenty years or so. I let too much ■■■■ stress me out. I was meditating yesterday. Sza is so unfair.
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Neighbors just said gonna bury her in dirt.
Me too or I would of given up hope long ago been dead or in jail if it wasnt for meds and support I get from my Parents hang in there @roxanna and everyone else on here who is at the edge of insanity and have reached the breaking point of giving up I have been there and youre not alone
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sorry you’re still hearing things…i hope you get to feeling better…sad.
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