I’ve been unable to write for a long time. My boyfriend died in june. I can’t even begin to express how much I miss him. He was my biggest supporter. He knew how to get me through anything. Since the beginning of this year my pdoc of six years quit her practice, another pdoc insisted I quit a med cold turkey. My attorney shut down and left town. By beloved died suddenly. I had to move from our house. Had to give up my dogs and horses. And my family still doesn’t want anything to do with me. Sometimes it seems like too much. At least I’m getting to the point where I can write about it. My beloved was so incredably wonderful to me. No one was ever that good to me before. He let me be me. Never any judgement. Never critical. Always encouraging me to just be myself. I never expected him to die. I don’t understand why this site will only let me post this topic as an unusual belief???
sorry that all of that happened to you joyful, and very sorry for your loss of your boyfriend, these things are very hard to deal with but i think you have done the right thing coming here to talk about it,
I agree with @daydreamer. It’s great that you can write again and it just adds to it making the decision to be on this forum. Letting yourself think and feel about your situation is the best thing you can do to cope, it’s the hardest in the moment but long term you’ll be healthy. Taking the extra step to express those thoughts and feelings is even better and makes you less likely to be dishonest with yourself, which I know can be automatic when someone you love like that dies. I had a girlfriend pass almost 4 years ago now and I made the mistake of shutting off. I’m just now coming to terms with grief and I think it’d of been much healthier if I would of had some supportive characters to express my feelings to. My point being, I’m glad to hear you’re on the right path and right there if you need help staying on it. Take care!
I’m really sorry about your boyfriend. Sending some internet hugs to you if you want them. It’s good that you are back.
Maybe @SzAdmin or @BarbieBF will know about the difficulty posting this as a normal post.
Sorry about your losses. Hope you can stay around this time.
I’m not sure why it’s in Unusual Beliefs. I will ask…
I am sorry for your losses @Joyful. It is a good thing when you can talk about it - good memories are etched into our hearts and minds forever
it will be two years since i lost my husband on december the 2nd. it does get easier believe me. now i can remember him with a smile instead of just tears all the time. i am still bitter, of course i am but i won’t let that interfere with my memories of him. he was a good man. one thing you have to be careful of though is glossing over the faults. everybody has them and my husband had his. nobody is perfect and there is no such thing as a perfect person for you. there are many peole that you could be compatible with, who would support you just as well as your boyfriend did. you will love again one day when you’re ready. grief is personal and takes as long as it needs. wallow in it while you need to but don’t shut anyone out. my husband said to celebrate his life not mourn him. that’s a very tall order when you miss someone but it is possible. always here if you need a chat.
joyful…i am so sorry for the things that have happened to you…sending you strength and lots of love and concern…i am glad you are back…((((((((((( hugs ))))))))))))
You have had a tough one! But i`m glad your back and talking with everyone. Things will get better. Hope you are taking good care of yourself OO
wow, so sorry for your loss and pain.
thought i would say hi.
take care
Thank you everyone for all your support and thoughtfulness.
I am sorry for your loss. I hope you can get through this rough time. Sending support and love your way.
I’m so sorry you lost such a good person in your life… and that so much change has snowballed so much… to loose you animals… your doc… your lawyer…
You have been through so much. I hope things turn around for you very soon.
Glad your able to write about this and get through this with the strength you have.
I’m so sorry for your loss.
You have been strong to go over all these events, it does require courage, I am glad you have been able to do so, but I am sorry for your losses.
I am so sorry for your loss. It’s really tough when someone dies young. I hope you find a way to cope.