Idk I just feel like a horrible person. Idk why I’m trying. I just want to stop existing. My family ■■■■■■■ hates me. I have nobody irl that would even care if I just disappeared from the face of the earth. I’ve made so many damn enemies. I’m just tired and sad. Sorry I’m venting again.
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No one should be depressed on Valentine’s Day 
Get some rest aND you will be better
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hang in there, @Noise you have bad days and you have good days. I guess your parents love you a lot but they are just ignorant of how to take care of MI people. If I were you , I’d make an effort in improving the relationship with Pdoc, because I need him to help with the disability application. With the disability pay check, then move out of parents’ house to have some peace and freendom. In Australia, the CenterLink staff always contact the Pdoc for information about your illness if you apply for disability Pay.
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Your posts are always so kind @Noise
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I’m trying. I just wish my parents weren’t always treating me like an inconvenience. I’m trying so hard to do things right. Idk. Over all I’m just down. I hope I feel better soon. thank you @green5 you’re always so nice to me.
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I will try to get some rest soon thank you hopefully it helps 
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Thank you I try to be. (Hugs)
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I would care if you disappeared. I like you based on what you post on this forum, If I heard about anything happening to you I would be very upset. I have nothing more to say that wouldn’t sound cliche. I wouldn’t insult you with that.
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Thank you @Anon10 that means a lot to me. I’ve just been feeling very isolated. My best friend of 10 years acts like I don’t even exist anymore. My family is fed up with me. This forum is the only place I don’t feel so alone.
Sorry I’m rambling again. Thank you for caring.
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Don’t be hard on yourself
We got very unlucky to have schizophrenia
Chin up tomorrow is another day
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We love you @Noise. Please be patient - with time you’ll meet irl people who’ll appreciate you. You’re awesome!
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Sorry you are having such a shitty time @Noise. Hope you can pull yourself out of this slump. I do mean it when I say I have confidence that you will find some peace of mind.
Try not to be too hard on yourself. You will have your day in the sun. Be patient and don’t give up.
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I would care if you disappeared, you’re not a horrible person with evidence from the way you write your posts. Sending a big hug, don’t give up
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hi noise, i am sure you are a good person from what i have seen very caring and with a good heart,
maybe you can mend broken bridges, maybe you are just depressed maybe you just need some hot chocolate with marshmallows and sprinkles … take it easy
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@Noise. Are you feeling any better?
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Ah… Dude I felt that way yesterday.
Man the people who care are always going to forgive you in the end.
There are testimonials out there that show the side effects of suicide. It’s a tragedy that ripples through everyone’s lives.
In death we are equal.
It’s a horribly disrespectful thing to do to people who care. There is no bringing back someone you miss after death.
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I am a bit better now. yesterday was just hard but I’m ok!
Thank you for checking up on me
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Thank you @eighteyedspy23 I’m hoping things get a little easier soon. I will try to be more patient with life.
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Thank you @Dante13 I’m going to try to stay strong. you keep trying too Ok!?
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Thank you @Resilient1 . I think I’m definitely going to treat myself to some hot cocoa. Hot cocoa makes everything better!
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