Ignorance is Bliss

I have a friend, who among other ignorant things they did during that time, implied even after knowing me for several years and visiting me in the psych ward that they think I’m not even mentally ill and I only think that because doctors are telling me that. Which any of us who have actually been to a psychiatrist who is doing their job right knows they say absolutely nothing judgmental or use any value words about the things we tell them and they try to remain neutral as possible. Or at least all the psychiatrists I’ve had in this town have never said anything to influence one way or the other what I would think of my symptoms.

It actually angered me enough I decided to put my phone on silent and put an SMS autoreply on where my phone says I’m sleeping if they try to get hold of me like they do 20 times a day on average because I need a day off from their ■■■■■■■■ if they’re going to make me run a marathon through it all at once. I’ve decided to actually just take a day off every week where I only deal with people I want to interact with (including not answering the door if I have to) because I’m so tired of dropping everything I do on anyone’s whim to go help them and they can’t even respect I have medical conditions like this that make it hard for me to do anything. I’ve had it set to this all day so I don’t even have to deal with the phone going off from them contacting me. I thought I was honestly past this where it pisses me off when people tell me nothing is wrong with me because they have absolutely no clue what I’ve had to go through to get to where I am today where I can hide it enough to look sane but it was the fact they did a bunch of other ignorant things during that time while talking to me which all built up to me snapping at the person in response to the flood of sheer ignorance.

I don’t even know how to stop any of this except for just saying ■■■■ it and becoming a hermit in a cave in the mountains outside of town. I feel like if I just committed suicide right now (no, I do not plan on doing this, I just wrote this as an example) that no one would’ve seen it coming and be in sheer shock.

I guess I just wrote this here because I felt the need to vent about this retarded ■■■■■■■■.

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The need for isolation has to do with the illness too, I too have to make better choice of friends…

I went back to the old friends. Facebook is so helpful…Already had a good clue who was screwed up and just avoid them.

Started to meet too many nuts and weirdo types of the new ones, and had some REALLY aggressively troubled ones start to bother me…Many of the women who had voices start for them and pestered by strange ones, shack up or marry the last good one they dated…I’ve seen this ‘solution’ in several places… Other choice is someone tries to pick you up talking about something private to you like exactly what you are thinking like a parrot, these people know a lot but could be a weirdo. Have to approach with caution but if person is holding down professional job, likely is okay if he treats people okay and doesn’t try to call you a nut or crazy. These people WILL leave you if voices demand it so he is ‘conditional’ but they are frequently a first marriage and okay for a while as long as respect is there & he is okay with your sex/looks.

Relationshiped: Less social harassment (thought broadcasters), no sex harassment firing at work with no unemployment EVER btw as is local art form and less problems with wondering what’s up at your housing while you are gone.

Lived in city in the hood, the guys just try to find someplace to live if you can get your own place. Try to stay alone and may get hurt in poor neighborhood. Sadly, country can be worse and some places have perfected how to ruin multiple women who answered job ad for work in smaller community, drive her crazy, ruin her housing, get her on the check and capture her. Cops help and lock them up in mental hospital for complaining…Seen worse in some places even so do not think it even okay to move alone any longer unless you know some of the locals or REALLY professionally networked it and have money to move (some of the wealthier people who can buy a new house alone are not being left alone to keep the building contractors working…Seen one place where some of the men were latching on to women, marry or shack her and try to prostitute her for area with sex abuse problem – someone advised Colorado and California are bad alone any more unless you come in with money but many with $$$ are being screwed eventually, spend rest on attorney and leave broke.

Some of the ladies here do ‘fake lesbian’ thing or just shack up & put on show with another lady in trouble just to keep things okay…Some of the females are more open to bi-situations even later in life so whatever works or keeps you both okay. Seen a gay guy marry a lesbian lady this place is so oppressive…sex harassment & ruin new female employees is art form here & never paid unemployment.

Mine man is in jail right now. Really nice guy in place with really screwed up middle aged men now after many went crazy & would harm their own mother now. Gotta be strong to stay alone and leave situations even as women who moved were being ruined if they tried to stay alone in some places.

If you had nervous after meeting someone threatening, you can sometimes get remission of schizo symptoms if you just do not talk to them again, NEVER do anything confrontational, do not discuss their story much except to protect yourself, do not follow orders from voices or talk aloud too self…

I’ve heard it 12 years without break, drug up to sleep alot and I still function okay to work on my schedule mostly…Live on my own most of time and deal okay with social problems as the locals just jerk me around a bit after a move, the ones who hear it say hello nutty style so I know who is who and then I’m considered desirable worker and locals start to tell you stories about how things work there. Voices are background noise a lot…Worked life/death situation for customers fine until local area had lots of folks go nutty so I do low importance/low stress work now (design/writing/wordpress/facebook) and all is good.

Some of the churches have been putting theirs on people who just had nervous, new to mental care to try to tell them a lot of people hear the voices and do okay enough, but follow orders from voices to hunt people down to verbally harass strangers who are getting disability check after mental care. Some places have a TON of hate mongers to listen too as ‘social problems’ after you hit paranoid schizo…Ignore it and it quits a lot of time, I only correct it at work as I live in big city and too many mindless barking dogs who just follow GAWD. Some on here have been approached about ‘meds’ and just said no thank you to church when you find out some of these churches are running anti-christ, stealing/lie/cheat/screw people so nothing to do with ethics, just a dirty business network of slaves who want the voices to stop (Others on this board do have negative screwed at church stories too.)

I’m 40, alone and no kids. I do relate as I do have a whiny friends who are dysfunctional (who are usually ditched long ago by the ladies with kids)…Responsibility of married is her family, self, employment, not a whiny friend who wonders why you are not partying any more.

I’m saying too much talking too…All I can say is I am sorry. I have people who will not talk to me any longer as their Baptist church tells them it can make their own problems stop to quit talking to people who heard the voices too long here (who are almost always a female victim of sex abuse or someone who met the sex abuse scam here. If alone too long, this place trashes you worse and more labeling you something wrong…The local baptists play people anyway, females are not allowed to discuss anything publicly and … I just don’t go near them either but the biggest churches are worst & considered cure for voices by many, but house the anti-christ crap.

Better to keep lots private. In small town, I use mental care 30 minutes+ away just to get free of stigma but sometimes the crazy ones always know who is who or more trash talk…)

My local community takes the sex abuser’s girls who moved to city and came back, and literally does blackball from professional work or told you have to work at restaurant now. Can have chance for professional work if you leave but will run into lots of trouble from the nuttiest anywhere you move, just keep quiet and do not talk about the problem back there. If you try to keep professional work in hometown, unless you are being hidden by a friend who runs a business you can be trashed by the local crazies and fired for anything they know about you. Multiple ladies went before me, cops just ruin them worse & lock them up as nut or run them off…So, kind of know what to expect here.

Small towns are just as messed up and sometimes don’t want the city’s people as brings in new mental abuse situation/voices from someone else. Will take nice looking women but you could be put with towns methy or abuse situation.

Is MUCH better to keep the established mental care relationship back at home if you are still having any problems with whatever caused you a nervous, problems from police threatening you (psych intervention officer here is a trap) or you are still having ANY problems with strangers. Mental care is get out of jail card if you end up on psych hold at mental hospital here. Lots of people are in there for months, acting okay after argument with family & usually way to fight it out but you had mental care. If you keep mental care, you will be allowed out in a couple days if you call the pdoc & explain it. NEW psych doctor situations can REALLY be different and hard to get used to or even trouble…May want to have access to your previous psych care & just do trip couple times a year for care that is okay.

Hope it helps.

Remember, never get confrontational with the pdoc or staff or they can lock you up in psych hospital for as long as they want. Policy is to refuse to discuss lots of stuff and call it delusional, especially the social problems…

Lots of people do not act right toward us afterward. Loved the 12 years working full-time and easily support myself, after nervous things have been worse. Move around and it can be even worse, as you get to see whatever is up there every time you move…Keep quiet & eventually they tell you about it all. Decide if you want to deal with it or move down the road quietly. Speak up and get in trouble, not worth it to say anything negative.

I don’t have a need to get confrontational with my psychiatrists because they have never started telling me whether I’m sane or insane, they just actually listen to me and adjust my meds accordingly without telling me my symptoms make me ■■■■■■ up or not and occasionally say something sympathetic in regard to how difficult it must be to deal with the things I deal with. It’s like it’s too hard to ask for someone to just listen and believe you’re crazy when you’re not paying them through your insurance premiums.

I saw something pop up on my screen where someone replied to this thread and then I guess deleted it soon after where they said I scared them with what I wrote or something along those lines. I was actually really holding back with how angry I was at the time… this is how angry I am after dealing with ignorance towards my life from practically everyone I know. :+1: