avoid the struggle…@ChestRockwell, I wasn’t aware I was avoiding a struggle. I don’t think of myself as “crazy”. I guess that’s partly my point. I have always been this way. Is it fun? No, it’s a struggle. But what I aspire to may be different than some others. I aspire to function without “losing my mind”, so to speak. No voices and no visions is a foreign state of mind to me. As it is, I raised a son, I have worked full time most of my adult life, and do now, and I have remarried… I don’t want to join the ranks of “normal” society becuse it is not home for me.