i think about it sometimes, what is stopping me from screaming randomly and running and jumping etc. i could do those things but if i did would it mean im crazy, even if im in a completely sane state from a medical perspective but just wanted to see how far i could push myself in the realm of spontaneity. i feel the same way i always feel but it makes me think if i just started doing crazy things, if mental illness would be to blame or maybe humans can just be more sporadic than society leads us to believe
I think about that a lot. Like I think, “I want to totally flip out right now” but then I don’t. I actually did it a couple times, when I was unwell. For me, the difference between well and unwell isn’t so much whether or not I am capable of thinking about the consequences, but whether or not they are a big enough deterrent to stop me.
It’s weird how children are allowed to flip out, but adults aren’t. It’s like we are trained and conditioned to not have fun.
In psychology they use the term selfregulation, i.e. ability to handle own emotions, handle impulses and deal with setbacks and ability to achieve realistic goals.
I actually do have mini flip outs where I get a little crazy. I sing really loud and dance about and generally act a fool. I get elated and laugh a lot and act silly like a child, it’s hypo mania or even mania sometimes.