Yes, so sorry for whining that much, i struggle so much i don’t know how to keep my head above the water. It was a gigantic confrontation in so many ways, plus I’m totally exhausted to the point of fainting and in major grief about my mum. Three major life events in a week, plus all the usual (work, kid, self-care, social stuff) is a bit of an overkill. I just had a real good conversation with my coach though about work.
Thanks so much for the kind words…I indeed was vulnerable now, and they were mostly kind about it. Perhaps it is good - now people see the real situation.
The harshes judgement was my own self-judgement… I try to take a bit of time to recover. In a few days my friend is back and I will go drink a beer and laugh with him. If people are judgemental that is indeed their problem.
@anon73478309
You are not whining! Please share as much as you want, when you want! You are in pain, and you are overwhelmed! You are not forsaken, and you are not forgotten. You are deeply loved, and you are cared for. These moments are excruciating, but they will not last forever. You will never be alone. He will walk you through them. Your mom is suffering, and you are burdened by regrets. But your mom cares for you deeply, she has never stopped loving you. She understands your humanity, your weakness, your frailty, and your illness. She knows you love her and you appreciate her. She knows you are trying so hard, and you are doing the best you can. You will fail, you will struggle. But we are here to support you! Keep reaching out! Keep talking!
I try to take a bit of time to recover. In a few days my friend is back and I will go drink a beer and laugh with him. If people are judgemental that is indeed their problem.
