Very bad idea. I wanted to go and support my family member, and so I did. There was a ton of drinking and just going through a break up I felt bitter and jealous that I’m not married or in a relationship and can’t even drink or have fun. I didn’t drink though. I didn’t have fun, but I didn’t drink and that’s what matters. I’m extra bitter, lonely, and angry today though. I’m trying to use my therapy tools and meditation to push these toxic feelings out, but I may have to let them run their course.
For some reason I still get thoughts that if I drink I’d enjoy these things and not be focused on the break up. It’s a lie though. I know I’d be so much worse after the party is over. I held on to my sobriety, but I’m a lonely, angry, and miserable wreck today. I need to make four years sober. That’s my biggest goal at the moment and it’s three weeks away. I haven’t struggled like this since the first six months I sobered up.
I simply flat out refuse to go to weddings or funerals as I know how badly I am affected for weeks after. I refuse to apologize for putting my health first. I highly recommend this.
Proud of you for not drinking and sorry that this took you down a few notches in terms of serenity. Hope you can drink tea and go for a walk or some such to recharge.
I’m so proud of you for staying strong. Even though you probably don’t feel that. But great job. It’s okay to be grouchy about it. It really is. Allow yourself to feel those emotions, instead of numbing them with alcohol. Hopefully you can find something positive that will help ease your emotions in a healthy way.
Good job! I’m sorry you’re bitter. How long has it been since the breakup?
It’s hard not to feel bad when others are seeming so happy, but you’re not. Just remember, people can be really good at putting up a facade. I mean their life can’t be all that great if alcohol is a prerequisite to having fun and feeling good.
Try going to meetings for a while if you don’t already. Do you have a sponsor? If not, that might help you a lot too.
Thanks everyone. I’m spending the day walking and diving deep into building the website for my new business. There’s a lot to learn, and it’s something I can do right now.
Great job, @Hemy I was once alone in a church basement. They were preparing for a wedding and there was a beautiful cake sitting on a table. I was so tempted to smash the cake with my fist because I felt alone and bitter. I’m so glad I didn’t but it was a close call. I’m with @anon82948922 and would just tell you to avoid those parties. I do.
