i dont know where time has gone. at least three days i was using heroin. its been about 24 hours since my last hit. im in withdrawls. my body aches, im hallucinating. just waiting for my next high. im going to get some more h tomorrow and ill be in heaven. ive lost all hope in life. no pleasure in my life besides the high. hopefully this ■■■■ will just kill me and thatll be that. what is their in life besides getting high?
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I don’t do heroin, I smoke and drink sometimes. I think it is better to be sober.
i dont know if i want to be sober at this point. i know itd be best for my mind, but i cant cope without being high. id be dead if it werent for drugs
I think if you feel that way you might want to get help.
Come on, man!
Just a couple weeks ago you were posing about kicking all this ■■■■.
You wanted to get sober,
Because you know this is not what you want.
If you are 24 hours from your last dose and able to type this,
You can beat this habit.
Are you throwing up yet?
Can you smoke some weed to get you through until you can see a doctor?
Heroin will kill you,
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Dont do drugs my friend …it can tigger psychosis…take med and be happy …!!!
Okay,
Just read back through some of your posts,
Maybe no to the weed.
I think you should go to the hospital,
They’ll keep you from getting dehydrated and give you some low dose benzos to help with the withdrawal.
Also, you can talk to them about your psychosis.
If you want to quit remember that you can get help through narcotics anonymous. I can empathize with your pain, to some degree. I used to go on alcoholic binges. I realize that is not as intense as a heroin binge, but it does give me some familiarity with addiction.
I don’t know what the success rate for recovery of heroin addiction is. It must be low, not impossible.
part of me wants to quit. part of me, the bigger part, has losy all hope. ive thrown up a couple of times. i feel trapped, like im living in a dream. i have klonpins and those are helping. i feel like im being controlled. the devil is manipulating the chemicals in my brain and making me do ■■■■. getting high is all i have right now. i have no relationships, my family abuses me. i feel like dirt. i just want to die
and on top of everything my insurance wont pay for my aps right now. i havent taken the pills in two days.
Your shooting heroin…that doesn’t let anyone get involved in your life. A junkie is a junkie and I’d wipe my hands of you too…It’s not your families fault your shooting smack. It is you.
It’s a poor way to deal with things but I’ve done chemicals in the past. When I became schizophrenic that was the end of that…You’ve just got to aim up…
yeah it sux. But your just digging yourself a hole. Unless your clean then no one will like to deal with you except others in the spriral…
It’s a hard journey out of that. It’s possible but you need to be strong…
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Gosh i find this thread so triggering.
But nevertheless, i hope you will not let heroin to kill you. What a sad way to die, isn’t it?
Those are the worst hours you are going through. Just a few more hours and your body will start to regenerate itself and then you’ll be able to think more clearly too.
I hope you will at least let your clear mind decide was it worth it.